Dysphoria (Mileven AU)

Eight

Tw: ED, puking, body dys
Mike's Pov

I'm so thankful for El letting me stay with her. I don't know what I'd do without her.

She lets go from the hug and I shiver from the now lacking presence of warmth from her.

"Alright well we should go eat breakfast," she said,"I made eggs, bacon, and some eggos," she continues. "Alright that's sounds good," I said.

We start to walk into the house and I can already smell the food.

We both walked into the kitchen and grabbed some plates from the cupboard.

"Do you have any maple syrup El?" I asked. "Yeah I do," she said,"do you need some for your eggos?" She asked. "No actually it's for my eggs," I said nervously. "That's actually really good," she said.

We got everything on our plates and sat down to eat. El instantly went to eat the eggos. "You really like eggos don't you El?" I said joking around. "Yeah eggos are my favorite food," she said and continued to eat. "Makes sense" I said.

We both continued to eat our breakfast in a comfortable silence enjoying each other's company.

"When do you plan on getting the rest of your stuff out of your parents house?" El said breaking the silence. "To be honest I'll probably have Nancy get it for me," I said,"I don't wanna deal with my parents again" I continued.

El nodded in response. I looked down at my plate and I have only eaten half of it yet I can't eat anymore. But I don't want to disappoint El so I'll eat it.

I ate the rest of my food feeling really full. I knew I couldn't eat much. Im also underweight.

"I'm going to go to the bathroom real quick," I said. "Alright take your time," she said. I nodded and when to the bathroom.

I opened the door, closed it then locked it. I went to the toilet and I put the seat up. I sat down on the end of the bathtub next to the toilet and I puked up all of my breakfast.

There was nothing against El's cooking. The food was amazing but I just ate so much. And I can't eat that much or I'll be fat.

That would just make my body look worse. I got up and went to look at myself in the mirror. My body looked somewhat feminine and I hated it.

I went to walk out of the bathroom but little did I know that El here everything that I did in there.

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Authors note: Mike is struggling with ED, the next chapter will explore some very dark topics just to let y'all know, day a good day/night. Fyi the cover is a picture of Mike and El that I made. Every little pixel I put there.

-Juno