Fake Love

Darkness

Ohm pov:)

          I was just staring at the ceiling even though I was so tired Even though my headache killing me I can't able to fall in sleep, I know without proper it's gonna affect my health But it's not mean I try to sleep it's not new to me neither.

         After that incident I always had nightmares sometimes I was so scared to close my eyes when I was kid even after therapy it's not gone fully it's was always there it just not the worst has before.

      It's was not just about one incident I gone through many things which I was not Share to anyone cause I was just scared of being judged by them I was scared of being myself.

         I just want someone who I can trust.

                 I want to Share all my darkest memory, I want to feel light without any burden feeling.

               Even though I was Alpha even though I was powerful on physical I was so powerless mentally.

                    I was so comfortable in the darkness but I also Scared that because of this I lose the light.

         I look at the clock it's already 4:30 Am Still I not got any sleep I get up from the bed I walked near the cupboard  I open shelf took the sleeping tablets.

         After taking it I felt my eyes getting heavy I walked near bed before closing my eyes I again saw a face.

                     He smiling at me He was so beautiful so gently he kiss me on my forehead I want to do same but I not able to move my body.

       He cares my hair while singing a lullaby it's felt so nice I can feel his warmness around me I can feel his love for me.

       But Suddenly all the warmth change into coldness I feel myself Shivering all I heard was him asking for my help but I can't able to do anything.

       I wakes up from the nightmares I breathing heavily.

      Why...Why...W..hy I keep getting the same dream for 15 years it's do nothing but hurting me.

         After I pull myself from the bed I drink some water I look at the clock 10:00 Am I was so tired but I don't think I gonna get any better sleep anymore.

          I got ready for work.