Until I find you again (Genderbend Hamilton au) (Lams)

Ch26

Alex POV

We get home from school and I dial the number for the orphanage so freaking quickly and- "Hello! This is Elizabeth Pressburg. Who may I be speaking to?" The chipper woman says cutting off my thought, "I am Alexandra Rachel Hamilton, and I would like to speak to Philipa Macy Hamilton please." "Of course! Just let me go get her." "Ok." I knew Mrs. Eliza when I was at the orphanage, I swear she is a saint. (A/N: I'm not hinting Eliza Schuyler, I'm hinting to a Saint) "H-hello" my thoughts are cut short by a small weak voice, "Hi Philipa, it's me Alexandra. I told you I'd call you back, remember?" "Y-yeah." "How are you? Are you ok?" "I- I'm doing pretty good right now" "That's good," Philipa is six years younger than me, meaning she is nine. Philipa can remember somethings, other not so much. Like, she might not remember who I am, but she'll remember her birthday. She'll remember important things, but she won't remember unimportant things for over a year. I know this because I've known her since she was born, I left when she was seven.

"Do you still remember who I am?" I ask her "A little bit." I smile "Ok, good. I would love to talk to you more but can you put Mrs. Eliza back on the phone please?" "Mhm" "Thank you." "Y-you're welcome" I start to head down the stairs to my parents. "Is Alexandra still there?" "Yup! Just give me one second please." "Ok!" I put myself on mute once I'm in front of my parents. I explain the whole Philipa situation to them both.

"Well, Alex let us talk to her." I smile "Ok!" I unmute myself "Sorry Mrs. Eliza that it took so long." "No, you're fine!" "My parents want to talk yk you about Philipa." "Ok!" I hand them my phone, risky I know right, and they start to talk to Mrs. Eliza. I turn around and start to walk up the stairs and as I'm walking up I feel this rush of wanting to cry and feeling the motivation to do anything just leave my body. Why? You maybe asking? I really don't know. I walk into Laf's room to see her and Jen sitting on her bed. So I walk in and fall face first down on Laf's bed, on purpose. "You ok Alex?" Laf asks me, "No, I just felt like I had no motivation and wanting to cry for no reason while walking up the stairs." I reply "It's one of two things I think it might be some form of depression." Jen says pulling her legs up to her chest.

"Well, I think it is her PTSD." Says Laf in a, somehow, confident tone. "No no Laf," I say getting up to sit on her bed, "My PTSD is if there is like a terrible storm that is somewhat close to a tornado or hurricane. If I was in a costal state and someone said a storm could get as bad as a hurricane I'm packing my bags and moving very inland. To like Ohio or something." I say. "Why Ohio?" Asks Jen. "Why NOT Ohio?!" I say "But Ohio is a super weird place!" Jen replies. "Then Alex will fit right in!" Says Laf. "This is why I talk to the little Rock Council(A/N: brought to you by the sleep deprived author) in the corner of my room." I mumble getting up and going to my room. A little Rock Council isn't that weird it's just a few rocks that sit in the corner of my room. Thier names are Scott, Matthew, Rhyan, and Lucy. I get into my room and lay down on my bed eventually falling asleep for a while.