The story of us// Hyunlix

Light at the bottom of the tunnel

January 2020

It had been a little over a year since Jisung's death and even though the pain had gotten a little easier to handle, it was still there. I was able to function again as a human but there were nights when all I could do was cry.

Minho on the other hand was even worse than I was, he had lost all light in him. He seemed like a dead man walking with the only purpose in life to get revenge on Jackson, and when he did take revenge, he lost all he had to fight for in his life. It was truly frightening to see him in that state.

"Minho how are you doing?" I asked him when he came down from the guest's bedroom to join Hyunjin and me in the living room. He had come to visit us since it had been a while since he and Hyunjin had spent time together.

"I'm alive I guess," he said and sat down.

Hyunjin looked at him with a painful expression that broke my heart. He then got up and hugged Minho.

"Get off me you disgusting idiot," said Minho but instead of pushing him away he wrapped his hands around Hyunjin and rested his head on his shoulder.

"Shut up," said my boyfriend, and Minho started to break down into tears.

"I can't do this anymore" he cried trying to hide his face in Hyunjin's shoulder.

"Hyun I can't..."

I couldn't keep seeing him like that, I also got up and hugged him. We were all hugging and I was wiping Minho's tears away while Hyunjin patted his back.

"It'll get easier I promise," said Hyunjin looking at me as well.

"I'll never see him again...I'll never be able to tell him that I'm in love with him...I'll never tell him I loved his morning hair or his puffy cheeks or the way he laughs...He's gone Hyunjin. He's gone forever"

At this point, we were all crying like crazy.

"I miss him more every day...nothing is getting easier"

"I miss him too," I said Minho looked at me and we both saw how broken the other was.

We spent a good hour crying till somehow both Minho and I had fallen asleep.

It was early morning when I woke up.

I looked around and Hyunjin wasn't there. I got up, put the blanket (that Hyunjin had probably put on us) over Minho, and then went outside on the balcony looking for my boyfriend.

And I was right he was outside on the couch looking at the pool, he seemed lost, not looking at something in particular.

"Morning," I said sitting next to him. He immediately made room for me and wrapped one arm around my shoulders.

"Hey"

"How are you feeling?" I asked and he put a smile on his face.

"I'm ok. How are you? Does the crying help let it out a little" he asked kissing my forehead?

"A little"

"Hyunjin"

"Yeah?"

"Are you ok?"

He took a moment before answering.

"I-I feel like shit...I wish I could help you both feel better somehow but I'm powerless. And I miss Jisung too" he said and I smiled.

"We'll all be ok...eventually right," I said and he nodded.

"Yeah...yeah we will"

"Jisung would want us to be happy you know" he added.