Easy To Love | LapiDot (Human AU)

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Content Warning: brief mentions of abuse and rape.

Lapis' POV

I awoke slowly to the sound of someone talking.

Fuck, my head...

Reluctantly, I pry my eyes open and look up towards the source of the sound - that being Peridot, standing in the doorway of her bathroom with her phone pressed up to her ear.

"What the fuck were you thinking, Amethyst??" she whisper-yelled into the phone.

I hear lowly from the phone speaker, "I didn't invite her, I swear!!"

What are they- Oh. Right...

Blurry memories of last night come flooding back into my mind harshly. While I can only vaguely remember most of it, how could I forget the look on her face. The way she approached like she was going to hurt me again. I'm grateful I had people there to protect me, but why can't I protect myself...?Whenever she's around, I freeze completely. It's really kind of pathetic...

A sudden wave of nausea washes over me heavily.

I'm gonna fucking vomit.

I shoot up from the bed, throwing the covers off of myself, catching Peridot's attention as I rush into the bathroom behind her and kneel down at the toilet bowl. I feel her walk up behind me and pull my hair out of the way as I retch violently into the bowl. Using one hand to hold my hair in place and the other to rub my back, she comforts me gently as I empty the contents of my stomach into her toilet. Slowly but surely, the nausea begins to fade and I pull my face away from the toilet with a sigh. Noticing this, Peridot tears off some toilet paper before grabbing my face gently and turning it towards herself.

Wiping my mouth off, she says, "I told you you shouldn't have drank so much."

"Yeah, I know...I might have a little bit of a problem," I confess with a weak laugh.

She gives a sigh before responding, "Come on, let's get you back into bed."

The two of us walk back over to the bed, myself stumbling on the short journey. I lay down slowly, with help from Peridot, cuddling up in the soft bed. She leans over me and brushes my hair out of my face.

"I'm gonna get you some water and food, okay?" she says and I nod.

Peridot returns shortly with a glass of water in one hand and a cup ramen in the other. She takes a seat on the bed next to me, and I sit up with a groan as she hands me the food and water.

"Thank you," I say quietly.

"No problem," she smiles as she turns on the TV.

The heaviness of the previous night hangs over the two of us like a fog while we watch TV and I eat my food. As I finish up the ramen and set the empty cup on the nightstand beside me, Peridot speaks up again.

"I'm so sorry about last night, I had no idea she would be there...and Amethyst swears on her life that she wasn't the one to invite her over," she states as she reaches her hands under her glasses to rub her eyes in annoyance.

"It's alright," I assure, turning my head to Peridot with a slight, forced smile.

She meets my eyes. "It sure doesn't seem like it's alright. Are you...comfortable telling me what's going on with her?"

I feel my heart drop, with my face following suit. While a couple people get the gist, I realize now that I've never actually told anyone the story, for varying reasons. Fear that they wouldn't understand, not wanting them to get the authorities involved, and in general a sense of mistrust. That and it's really just something I'd like to avoid thinking about - though that's hardly ever possible thanks to the nightmares and overall PTSD.

Peridot's POV

Lapis is staring down at the bed, seeming to be lost in thought, and I begin to regret asking my question.

"You don't need to tell me anything if you aren't ready," I say with a calm tone. My voice seems to break her away from her thoughts, and she looks back up to me.

"No...I think I need to talk about it." With that, she turns herself completely towards me, folding her hands in her lap with a long sigh. I mimic her and adjust my position so that my body is facing her own, letting her know without words that she has my full attention.

"...Jasper is my ex-girlfriend," she speaks her name with a noticeable hesitancy. "I'd say we got together around a year and a half ago. It ended a few months ago. It's the typical story - at first, everything was great...But it turned sour quickly. I'm still not sure entirely what happened, if something changed in her or if that had been her the whole time. But..."

Lapis tenses up, squeezing her hands together briefly before taking a deep breath and collecting herself once more.

"At some point, she'd start getting more angry over smaller things. It seemed like everything, anything, would set her off. And she took it out on me. At first it was only yelling...Then it was yelling and shaming...Then yelling and hitting...And..."

She pauses, visibly tensing up once again, and I see tears threatening to fall from her eyes. Fearing to hear the worst, I carefully place one of my hands onto her folded ones. It feels like shes gripping onto herself for dear life.

"...S-She would pressure me to do things," she stutters hesitantly, "Things I told her I didn't want to do...Pressure turned into force..."

Allowing the tears to flow freely down her face, Lapis turns her face down towards the bed below us. I'm not even sure what I'm supposed to say right now. I've known that Jasper is an asshole, but this...this makes my blood boil.

Slowly, I move the hand that isn't in her lap up to hold her face gently. Pulling her face up to the same level as mine oh so carefully, I use my thumb to wipe away her tears. I allow myself to fall into the gaze of her beautiful blue eyes as I give a soft smile of reassurance. She nuzzles into my hand, shutting her eyes as she does so.

"I'm sorry, I'm not really sure how to respond," I speak up, "But I'm here for you. I'm so sorry you had to go through that."

Lapis moves in closer and gives me a tight hug, before she speaks once again, "Just you listening is enough..."

I hug back strongly, hoping to get across the words I can't find via the embrace. We rest on each other's shoulders, and I hear faint sobs from the girl in my arms as she tightens her hug even more, shaking lightly. I lift a hand up to the back of her head, running my fingers through her soft, dyed hair in an attempt to provide more comfort.

We remain there for quite a few minutes, but I don't mind a bit. I love feeling so close to her, and more than that I want to make sure that she's okay. As her cries eventually fade and her breathing slows, I hear her voice again, quietly.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

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