Have you ever noticed how the scariest movies, are the movies that start of as a comedy. Like there is a normal family, and nothing out of the ordinary happens, and then BOOM everyone gets possessed or haunted or whatever.
Well those are what get me. I feel this is what it must be like for my friends, I mean i was completely normal up until this point, and I have to keep reminding myself that this is a little much to take in.
I hope they find it in their hearts to forgive me for not telling them anything, or forgive me for being such a major fuck up.
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I walk into science and i immediately notice something is off.
I normally sit in the middle of the classroom, right in the middle. In front of me is one of my good friends Chrissy, and normally to the left of me would be a slightly annoying girl whom i talk to sometimes named Sammi. However when I walked in today Sammi was across the room all the way to the far right, in her place though, was a boy, a boy i haven't seen before.
He was extremely attractive and that made me want to crawl up in the corner and die, because if there was one that I can't do properly, it is talk to boys.
I walk towards my desk cautiously, and the boy smiled at me and opened his mouth as if to introduce me, but was cut off because Chrissy yanked me away and gave me a glare.
"What the hell is wrong with you, you can't just go and kill yourself!" The angered look in her eye was slowly turning to sadness.
I stared back, not knowing what to say.
"YOU COULD HAVE AT LEAST WARNED US, WE HAVE BEEN WORRIED SICK." she was screaming now and tears were welling up in her eyes.
By we she means my small circle of friends, Beth, Riley, Samantha, Sasha, Libby and Faith. I would have told them, but they weren't exactly the most accepting group of friends. They constantly made fun of me, everyone makes fun of me. I'm just that type of person who is easy to pick on.
"Chrissy, you and i both know that if i were to tell them i was killing myself, you all would either laugh in my face, or slowely drift away, don't even pull that shit." I hissed back.
People were now watching with full intensity, god, i h.a.t.e.d. attention.
Look at what a fool you've made of yourself. You fat cow, now everyone has noticed you, now everyone is judging you, judging you by your weight. Look at them they are just cringing in disgust.
Shut up! I know, i don't need you to remind me. I thought I got rid of you with the last attempt.
Yeah well I'm back now, you cow. But.. you did start this. Might as well end it right, everyone has already seen your embarrassing body.
I like the way you think.
"How would you know Niki, everyone who has ever tried to talk to you about anything remotely serious, you pushed away. Have you ever thought that people actually care about you?" She looked a little concerned after she said this because I started laughing hysterically.
"HA! That was a good one, a little stereotypical though. I mean, I appear alive and well, and no one gives 2 shits about me, and they all make fun of me and tell me I look like a troll, and that i eat too much, and that I'm fat, and ugly and whatever! But then... I go and try to kill myself, and all of a sudden a terrible past is cleared up and now, everyone cares about me, because really they were there for me all along!" I was past furious right now.
"Niki, just listen." But I didn't listen i packed my bag and ran out of the class.
It's a shame too, I never got that boys name.
