Wolfstar Oneshots

"You Keep Me Safe"

A/N: More angst, once again inspired by those Tumblr prompts. I'm quite proud of this one. It's really heavy though, especially toward the end so if you get triggered easily please skip this one. For a bit of background, James and Lily are dead but Peter was rightfully accused so Sirius and Remus took Harry in.

Editing note: haha, I did an oopsie.  So, thankfully one of my lovely readers pointed out to me that there was a chunk of text that was repeated in the original text, it has been fixed now. Sorry for any confusion!

T/W: Blood, swearing, grief, metaphor for suicide, and main character death

*Remus POV*

My claws tear through the person in front of me. Deep red liquid seeps through the break in their skin. It gathers in a pool beneath me. The fluid is warm and sticky, I quickly realize I am sitting in a pool of blood. I hold my hands out in front of me. my nails have been replaced by claws and my skin has sprouted hair. The figure moves uncomfortably, groaning in pain.

"Please" they beg.

I recognize the voice first, then the hair, and lastly the figure. Sirius is the one in front of me, the one I'm hurting. I will myself to take the claws away, to dig into my skin, but I can't. I'm not here, it's moony, my monster. Sirius continues to whine but there's nothing I can do. Finally, I transform back into myself. My cries mingle with Sirius' as the hair disappears and my features return to a human state. Once the transformation is complete I crawl back to Sirius.

He whispers my name, "Remus"

"I'm so sorry, I did this to you. I'm a monster."

"No, it's not you" he croaks, losing his last bit of strength.

"Sirius" I shake him, "Sirius!" I yell, but it's too late.

His chest heaves one last time, and just like that. Just as quickly as his life began, it ended. He's gone.

Unless...

*Sirius' POV*

I lay awake staring at the ceiling of the bedroom, Remus sleeping peacefully next to me. Last night was a full moon, the worst one yet. When I'm in front of Remus I have been acting like everything is fine. The truth is I'm scared. I'm scared I will lose him, from the war or a transformation. Remus startles awake next to me.

"Sirius," Remus whimpers.

I sit up and motion for him to sit on my lap. He shyly sits up and rests his head on my chest.

"It's okay, I'm right here. You're safe, it was just a dream," I comfort.

He tightens his grip on my shirt, "I love you."

"I love you too," I whisper into his ear.

"I can't lose you."

"I'm not going anywhere," I assure him.

"You keep me safe."

"Yes, and I always will,"

I hear him stifle a cry.

"What's wrong?"

"You-you were gone."

"It was just a dream, sweetie. I'm right here."

Remus buries his head deeper into my chest. I rub soothing circles on his back.

"It was so real."

"I know, I know. It's okay, let it all out"

"I was moony and I didn't realize it was you at first but when I did, I couldn't stop. Usually, I have control, I can direct the claws to me. This time, it was like I wasn't even there. Then I transformed back and crawled to you," He sobs, "I tried to stop it, I tried to save you. But I couldn't"