This is love ~ Elmax

III - First day

~ Eleven POV ~

I was staring at the school with big eyes as I felt the nerves creep back in. I took a deep breath as I look at Max. "I don't know if I can do it." I softly say to her as I meet her eyes. All I wanted to do is curl back into Max her arms, but I knew I couldn't. "You'll be okay. I'm here with you the whole time okay? Will too." Max reassures me as Will turns to me and nods. "It's going to be okay El." He says with a smile. I tell myself it's going to be okay. I did harder things then go to school. Nothing could be worse then the school back in California, could it?

We had to go to the gym for our first day of school for a small welcome ceremony, so we headed there first. We met Lucas, Dustin and Mike there too as we join them to sit next to each other on the benches. They didn't even have to be here since this will be their second year, but they decided to come to school earlier to join us and support us. They knew how nervous I was and how hard it would be for Will and Max to be back here as well. So it was very sweet of them to be here for us. The gym was crowded with people. I felt some eyes on us, but it wasn't because of me. I heard whispers about Max having to do this year over and about Will being back, but no one knew who I was, so no one really cared. I looked at Max a bit worried, since I didn't want people spreading rumors about her. She met my eyes as she smiles softly. "It's fine El, I expected this. It's nothing you have to worry about okay?" She whispers softly as I gave her a small nod. It wasn't anything bad I heard about Will or Max, but it gave me an uneasy feeling that at our first day, they were already talking about them. That only shows how fast things could go at school. I felt kind of bad about being happy they weren't talking about me. I try to shake it off as I focus back on the speech someone was holding about the school.

The speech took forever and I began to get distracted. It was just information about the school and the classes they were talking about. I tried to pay attention to everything they were saying, but my head was only filled with other things. The main thing being Max and not being able to hold her or kiss her. Our relationship was still so new and exciting, that every second I am with her, I wanted to just spend on her and her alone. But school already made that impossible. I sat next to her on the bench as we were so cramped together that our legs were touching. And it drove me crazy, since I felt all these feelings and couldn't act on them. It was kind of funny how fast my nerves turned into this disaster of emotions. I look at Max who sat on the bench leaned back as if she could fall asleep any second, since she looked so bored and uninterested. She noticed I was looking and met my eyes. A smile appears on her face as I quickly look away, because I knew if I stare for to long, it would impossible to not want to kiss her right away. I sat up straight as my hands were resting on my knees, trying to pay attention again to the guy who was talking. He was talking about joining some sort of after school activities or something, but I missed half of it.

"See that wasn't so bad right?" Max softly asks me as she gave me playful push. We just walked out of the gym with everyone as we made our way to the cafeteria. I chuckle softly as I nod. The speech was long and boring, but it was already lunch time and nothing bad had happend. So I felt pretty good. The boys and Max had showed Me and Will around so we knew were everything was.  As we arrive in the cafeteria we hear a loud fimiliar voice. "If those aren't my little minions." We hear Eddie say as he stood up and waved us over to his table. We chuckle as the boys almost sprint to the table in excitement. I still felt nervous and a bit scared since everything felt so new, but being greeted by this familiar party we have been a part of for a while now, felt very comforting. It was basically the whole hellfire club at the table, so it were all familiar faces. We sat down as the boys started talking about DND right away. Max and I sat at the end of the table as we sat opposite of eachother. "How are you holding up bab- I mean Jane." Max quickly corrects herself with a slight chuckle. "I'm doing okay. It's going well so far." I state as I look at Max. "I'm glad." She smiles. I smile too as I look around the tables. People were staring at us. I felt the nerves creep back in as I quickly look away again. "Don't mind them, they just don't like this table. The hellfire group has always been the nerds and outcast table of the school. So it's nothing personal." Dustin explains as he saw the worry in my eyes. I nod softly as I look down at my lunch. Why was my first instinct to want to get up and sit somewhere else? These were my friends and I liked everyone at the table, but I didn't want to draw attention to myself and make the possibility of being bullied about it even bigger. The feeling got to overwhelming as I quickly stood up as all eyes were focused on me. "Uh, I need to got to the bathroom. I will be right back." I quickly say as I left my lunch at the table and make my way to the bathroom.

I go into the bathroom as no one else was in here. I lean with my hands on the sink as I look at myself in the mirror. What is going on? Did I really wanted to abandon my friends, to not be seen? I don't know what I thought. I was just so scared to be the target again that I just rather wanted to be invisible then to stand out in the middle of the 'outcast table' as Dustin called it. But I didn't want to leave my friends- and Max. "El? Are you okay?" I suddenly hear as the door opened and meet Max her eyes. "Yeah, just needed some time to think." I explain as I look at her. "What's wrong?" She asks as she came closer to me and touches my arm gently with her hand. I quickly pull away as I look around panicked. "El, relax, there is no one here." Max states as she looks worried at me. "Sorry, I'm just freaking out. I don't know what to do." I admit as I shake my head softly. "What's wrong? You said it was going okay. Did somebody say something to you? Who was it? I will kill them." Max growls as she looks at me determined. "No one Max, it's just too many eyes are focused on me. I can't help, but panic and think they are going to be mean to me." I admit as I look into her eyes. "But, let's talk about it after school. Not here." I softy say. "Is there anything I can do to make you feel beter for now?" Max asks a little worried as she looks at me. "I don't know, I just want to try and not think about it for a moment." I explain as I took a deep breath. Max pulls me into a bathroom stall and closes the door. My eyes grew as I didn't expect that. She gently places a kiss on my lips as her arms wrap around my waist. "Max." I whisper against her lips as I was scared someone would see or notice. But I also couldn't help but smile and melt into her touch, since her arms where my happy and safe place. "Sorry, I just wanted to make you feel better, I had too. No one is here." She whispers as she wanted to pull away. I look into her eyes as I pull her back and kiss her back, wrapping my arms around her neck. She softly smiles against my lips as I pull away. "And it worked. Thank you." I softly admit with a giggle. "Good, because I missed your lips." Max whispers as she licks her lips. "Me too, so much. I've been craving you all day." I admit in a soft whisper. "Shit, don't say that to me now, I will act on it." Max smirks as she licks her lips. "At home. I promise." I whisper against her lips, trying my best to control myself. Reminding myself where we are. "I can't wait." Max smirks as she kisses my lips once more. "Try to focus on me and your friends okay? We got your back. Don't let others bother you. You don't need them." Max smiles. I nod as I gave her a smile back.

We got out of the bathroom stall and walk back to the table. Me still being nervous, but I try to not let it bother me too much. I sat back down at the table finishing my lunch till the next bell rang. We had two classes today. Art and literature. It were fun classes Max told me so, I was looking forward to it and trying to focus on the classes and her, instead of the eyes I felt burning in my back when I walked to class with Max and Will.

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//AN: My starving children asked me to post so I delivered. Hope you all like it my loves <3