Surround me - the first novel

Chapter 73- paranoia

Matty's POV

I've been thinking about the things between us lately. The things that makes us strong and the things that can destroy what I have with her.
And I've decided I need to eliminate them one by one.

I exhale, time to grow up and face things. Seeing Jay today gave me a ton of perspective, I used to treat girls like he does and ultimately I used to look up to him. My priorities have changed. I respect Taylor so much, she stood up to him every single step of the way, and she could have tried to charm him or even flirt with him but she didn't she just spoke to him and made herself heard. I was proud of her, she doesn't need me to tell her that. She extended her care towards him giving him food and I know exactly why she did, she likes to make everybody feel welcome and cared for. She's a genuinely good person, and I have to be just as good in order to meet her expectations.

Jay will try his best to exploit me, he's probably digging info on me now to use against me. I saw his eyes on her, I'm not delusional she's ridiculously beautiful and she's hasn't a clue. It did take a lot of control for me to sit there and allow him to look at her; her legs in those stockings, her cleavage in my shirt. His only desire will be to use her up and then move on to the next one. He will not care that I am in the picture either.

The problem is she wants in at the party, and it is not right for me to just tell her that I'm not taking her. She has planned an outfit, it's genuinely a red flag if your boyfriend refuses to leave the house with you. That will need to be handled really effectively; I must not shout or get into a fight. Yet just half an hour of him around her tonight and I was ready to punch him.

Jen is just brewing up some trouble for me ready to unleash on her as revenge. This is a huge weakness threatening what I have. I need to carefully consider how to tell her about that conversation regarding the bet, should it be brought up by anybody other than myself she will see it as a betrayal, the problem is how do you tell somebody that without hurting them? Maybe I should just come out with it? I need to give it some thought.

I mentally go through the steps I need to take to make our relationship bullet proof. As I look down at her sleeping in our new duvet in my room that now looks a lot more neutral and organised I do love watching her sleep. Stroking her hair I realise I used to hate guys like me. Guys that went on about their girl and how beautiful she is. Guys that put their girls so high up on a pedestal. Protected at all costs. It just turns out I hadn't met my girl yet.

Muttering in her sleep something indistinguishable she moves over to the other side and I trace lines up her hips under my shirt. I remember how perfect she looked in my kitchen wearing my shirt. Having sex with her on my sofa. That was my best sexual experience I've ever had and she doesn't even know it. I cup her belly in my hands and smile resting my head in her neck and kissing her. I massage her tummy and her waist. The prospect of pregnancy doesn't scare me. It doesn't worry me because I known that she is it for me. Running my hands over her hips and up again. She moves closer to me enjoying the physical contact. We both turned our phones off before going to sleep so that there will be no distractions.

We do have a double date tomorrow. It's important to me that her friends see me as the correct choice for her. I'm interested in getting to know Malachi a little bit more too, he seems like a good guy.
Like the kind of guy I want to be for her. A good honourable guy. A guy that doesn't place bets on women. A guy that holds his girl all night long imagining putting life into her.