School Mates

Chapter Eighteen

"Clara please come to the doctors" I whined.

"I don't need to" she yelled.

I held my neck and sighed.

"How are we suppose to help each other if you can't take care of yourself?" I asked in a high tone.

She looked at me with anger in her eyes.

"are you kidding me?! I CAN take care of myself thank you very much" she replied walking away from the doctors office.

"Clara wait please I'm sorry" I said running after her.

She headed down the road making me hustle after her.

"I don't need your help or your pity Shawn" she said rudely.

She stomped home and I just let her. I headed over to the store to buy a couple of things for the house. When I got home I saw Clara popping pills, smoking a cigarette, and drinking straight liquor.

"Clara what the hell?!" I yelled smacking the cigarette out of her hand.

It felt to the carpet and I stomped on that.

"Shit my mom's gonna be pissed!" she yelled cleaning it out with her fingers.

"That's all you care about right now!?" I asked angrily.

"I have nothing to care for" she yelled sobbing.

"What about me?" I cried.

She sighed and let her tears fall.

"I don't want to hurt you Shawn, I'm a horrible human being and you deserve the best, not me" she sobbed again.

I helped her to her feet and hugged her tightly.

"But I love you for who you are and I want to be with you" I mumbled in her ear.

She pulled from my grip and walked over to her drink and bottle of pills.

"That's not your decision" she said eating more pills with a glass of liquor.

"Clara no!" I yelled as she fell to the side.

"It's okay Shawn" she calmly said petting my hair.

"Clara please, I can help you" I cried.

"Shh, I love you so much, but it's okay I don't want to live a sad life with someone I should be so happy with" she said chuckling as her voice cracked.

I wiped my tears and sighed. I pressed my lips on hers as she closed her eyes.

"No, no, no, Clara please stay with me forever. I wanna be with you forever" I cried.

I let her stay in my arms for a while as I cried. Tears fell from my eyes onto her cheeks. I sat her down on ground to call the police. After the phone call I screamed and cried smashing my fists in the wall.

"Godammit!" I screamed.

I looked at pale, sweet Clara sitting on the floor then back at the pill bottle. I ran over to pill bottle, looked back at Clara. I took one last breathe and inhaled the pills. I carried Clara to the couch but only made it to the bottom. I snuggled up next to her and held her hand. One last tear fell down my cheek. I heard the faintness of the sirens as I shut my eyes.