Just Friends?

Is this really love?

Sunday, November 1st, 2020

New York

Y/N POV

"Hi Ellie," I said sadly, to my best friend ever. After I left Ariana's today, I felt sad and my head is all screwed up. I need to talk to Ellie because she keeps me from being all fucked up. She's my person. 

Ellie's face on the screen went from happy to confused. "Why do you look like shit?" I was silent because I was trying to figure out the words. "Is it your girl? Is it Paco or Gia? Is it my family? What is happening dude?" She was speaking quickly. 

"No, no, it isn't that bad. I mean it is just overthinking..." I said. 

"What is it then?" Ellie asked. 

"It is Ari and I. She keeps getting jealous of others. It keeps happening. It makes me feel like shit because I feel like she doesn't trust me. I feel like she doesn't believe I love her. She's always seeking to know if my feelings are real. It hurts dude. It hurts. Then I wonder if it will even last with her. I wonder if she'll cheat on me again. The reason she cheated before was because Ari was jealous. Over and over, it is like I have to keep up with proving myself. I don't know if this is love," I ranted. Every negative thought regarding my relationship was pouring out. I was a bit of a wreck. I don't think people who are in love talk like this. 

Ellie was just staring at me. I could see it in her eyes that she was going to say something. That something may not be the thing I want to hear. "Are you sure Ariana is a good idea? Is she actually making you happy? Do you see a future with her?" 

I want to make it work. I may be forcing it. Maybe I am a bit blind. "Yes it definitely is a good idea. I love her and she makes me the happiest person I could ever be. I see myself having kids with her. I do see a future with her," I told Ellie. But really, I don't know if I was even convincing. 

Ellie POV 

That idiot. Just completely lying. I know his feelings towards Ariana have definitely changed. Want to know why? At the first part of Ariana and Y/N's relationship, he was happy. He was actually happy. Y/N was bouncing off the walls with how much happiness he had. The dude was in love. When he would talk about what his future would be, he would mention Ariana, and there would be a light in his eyes. Now, there's no light. There is no excitement when he is talking about his relationship. It is just a confused guy. 

I really think Ariana and Y/N should have never gotten back together. Y/N is forcing the relationship. 

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