Self Contradiction

Self-realization

Here I was again, looking up at the sky, wondering, how it all began. What I meant by that was when I began to question my worth. My own being. My existence in this reality.

Okay getting a little ahead of my stupid self again.

Whenever I look at the sky, I see the sun, moon, and stars, their bright figures staring down at me. Or perhaps they were glaring.

I shook my head. Negative thoughts. Must not think of negative thoughts. Think logically, stars cannot glare at you. They can't even smile at you.

Negative thoughts have invaded...I just couldn't help it at times.

There were times that I would have such a great day and then there was that. Those times were horr—

Up, pa,pa,pa. (Wonderful way to stop negative thoughts. More embarrassing. Well, okay I rarely get embarrassed.)

Anyways, I was thinking about my own self. I kept wondering if I should let all my responsibilities go and go with the flow. Should I just stick with the plan and keep at it? If I work hard would I achieve my goal or was it luck. Maybe a little bit of both.

You know it doesn't work that way all the time.

Of course not. But that still doesn't mean it never happens. There's always hope that things will work out at the end or it could all go down drain.

Just remember, you make your own decision in life.

Of course, that's why I will choose to.....

I see.