Au Revoir

Feels Like October Again

Feels Like October Again
May 11, 2015

My eyes locked on yours
On one October day
I always try to ask myself
How you ended up making me feel this way

364 days after that October
You came to open the lock
That, I didn't want to happen
But it wasn't you who was mocked

Summer of the next year
I nonchalantly got away from you
Not because of hatred
But the need to be free, too

The distance was unimaginable
But I didn't care
I was doing great
But to meet you, I couldn't dare

However, four months before October
You magically appeared
I was beyond appalled
But I felt like I had to adhere

We actually exchanged conversations
And felt like a day from 450 before
Almost rebelliously, I felt something
And realization hit me to the core

What can I do,
To prevent what makes me happy?
You bring me down to despised depths
But you also bring out the best of me

I may loathe myself for this
And I'm bringing myself to the lion's den
But maybe dead love can be alive once more
Because it feels like October again

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NOTE: Please know that not all that I write here is true to life. Not everything that I write is about me. So if you judge me for writing too much about love, know first that I'm comfortable with this genre and I like crafting art with words that fit best for romance. Pero na-feel ko talaga ang poem na 'to. Wala lang hahaha.