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Art of Falling and Moving On

Art of Falling and Moving On

October 31, 2014

On my feet, I stood up

And tried to face the world

Even though everyone made me stop,

I told them, "I'm not that kind of girl."

Every day, I went out to find something new

I said, "Maybe it'll come out of the blue!"

But then, I realized I was not right

Because, all along, what I wanted was in my sight

Days passed and I had a friend

The one who told me, "This will not end."

And assuming it was all about me,

I locked my heart for him and didn't set it free

Seeing you was magic to me

Because the words you said made me fall in a certain degree

The way you look at me

It was magical, a beautiful redundancy

Things bloomed and still I was stuck

With the memories you got me in tuck

I pondered for a moment and smiled all day

Because finally, I realized, falling was just a step away

I talked to you and told you it was love,

Three words... I said them

And wished for good luck

Waiting for your reaction,

My eyes lit up

Palms all sweaty

It felt like time has stop

However, your smile started to fade

Then came your words... I became afraid

You told me I had to set myself free,

Because, "friends are all that we will ever be"

My chest constricted

Eyes all sore

I was tired of crying

And I should cry no more

Running away, I bit my lip

Wanting the remaining time to skip

Pain immediately demanded to be felt

And I realized, I placed myself below the belt

Love was the thing I eagerly searched for

Because I thought everything in my life was plain and a bore

Then, I admitted, "I wish I stayed."

'Cos the only thing I got was pain and heartbreak

Coming back to reality,

I said, "I was a fool"

For believing in your 'I love you's'

When I was only a tool

You used me to boost your pride and ego

When love was all that I could ever bestow

You blinded me of the truth

When all that you said were sugarcoated lies which were undeniably uncouth

With tears welling from my eyes

I decided to go

To the people who loved me

When everyone else said 'no'

I told them I was hurt

And I thought I could never bring back

The past 'me' that they loved, which was on life's right track

Letting me in for an embrace,

I started to cry

"Calm down, honey. Time passes by."

"Falling is a beautiful thing to do

Only if there is someone to catch you

But remember that it is true...

That falling will only burden you"

"If it's pain you're feeling right now,

Don't let it stay

Because if he truly loved you,

He will never walk away"

"People were holding you back

You were safe from the downfall

But since you searched for what you wanted

Pain is what you're feeling above all"

"Honey, you're a great child

But you're still blinded by the fictional kit

Knight in shining armors don't exist

They're retards in tin foil and I tell you, they're pieces of s***"

Laughing, I wiped my tears off

I said, "I definitely need to stop"

I told them I will love no more

Because the pain was still killing me hard core

"Honey, you deserve all the love the world can give

But it takes a certain lad for that kind of love to live

I tell you, wake up and hear

Because there's someone out there willing to wipe off your tears"

I smiled and stood up straight,

Promising myself to never be taken as bait

For true love can truly wait

And it will spare me from all of the hate

"Moving on and letting go,

Is one damn hell of a show

But it is best for you to know

That it is pointless to hold on to things which do nothing else but hurt you slow"

Walking away with scraped knees is hard to do

But it is better to go than to stay with someone aloof

Because heartbreaks shatter you like bullets

And I tell you, you're not bulletproof

{inspired by} heartbreak. is my property in the 'friendzone' permanent? scars don't fade immediately. and pain just demands to be felt.