Incomplete

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by shattereddamsel

by shattereddamsel

Incomplete

I do not bother to handle depression. Yes, I get sad often. But then, I can immediately drift off to sleep or blast off music or write 'til I bleed to temporarily forget the pain. It passes. The sadness disappears eventually. Because you won't stay sad all your life. Life's not a straight road.

So, I don't get depressed. It's a different story. A whole different level. It has something to do with mentality and psychology at corners I can't fathom but get the gist... depression is not good.

But please explain this feeling.

Everytime I look at you, there's really something different. Every move you make is captured. Every word you say is heard. Everything about you is what I depend on.

Is this the reason why after you left me, no sleep nor drug can make me forget the pain?

When you left me, I wasn't sad. It was like turning back on something that I've been chasing for years. Turning back on the memories I made sure to make. Turning back on what meant the world to me.

I wasn't sad or depressed.

I was incomplete. The world just left me. But I can't chase it anymore. Especially now that you fractured my bones, broke my heart and left me completely paralyzed. For all of the good and bad in you. For all of you.

How could you do this to me?

ㅡ 12.12.14

I got bored so I wrote. Nothing special about this hahahaha.