Notice Me \\Tomboo\\

\\Chapter 51\\

Tommy POV

After our quick make out session, we'd actually studied. Now we'd been watching a movie and cuddling in bed.

"Hey babe, can we go get snacks?" I asked.

He smiled, "Sure. Yeah, let's go right now."

I smiled and kissed him, "Thanks."

We both got up. He paused the movie and tossed me my shirt. I put it back on and he put his back on too. Then we put our shoes on and left downstairs.

He grabbed his keys and told Techno where we were going. Afterwards, Ranboo drove us to a local grocery store for snacks.

However, I was planning on buying a pregnancy test.

\Time Skip\

We got there and were entering into the store. Ranboo held my hand walking towards the candy isle. I squeezed his hand, "Babe, I'm gonna go get uh- Coke. You get the snacks."

"Cokes a little heavy, how bout we get it afterwards? Plus it's late and dark out- I would prefer you be close by." He frowned.

I kissed him then pulled away, "I'll be fine babe, calm down. I'll be a few isles over. We'll meet at the front in like- ten?"

He kissed me again, "Okay. Ten minutes."

I nodded then kissed him once more before walking away. I hurried to get the Coke and afterwards, moved towards the medicines and medical area. I looked and saw condoms, then birth control pills, and tampons, pads, then finally- A pregnancy test. I grabbed two of the one minute rapid tests and then rushed to the front.

I went to self check out and paid for it. Then I went to the back of the store where the bathroom was. I went inside the one person restroom and went to the toilet to take one of the tests.

After doing so, I sat against the wall waiting for the words to appear. God I was praying to see only one red line. I needed to see the line, not two of them- just one. 

I couldn't end up like my parents....I know I'd done it just to spite my father, but....I don't want to have a baby. I'm not ready.

Not now when I'm seventeen in highschool- God, not only would I be ruining my life, I'd ruin Ranboo's life.

I took a deep breath preparing. The minute lasted what felt like forever. God it was taking so long. It was as if this one minute was lasting an eternity-

Then finally...red.

I looked away. I hadn't seen how many limes...Only red out the corner of my eye. Now I took a deep breath and slowly looked back over.

Two.

I froze....I didn't cry or despair- I just looked at it. I put it back in the bag and left off towards the front of the grocery store.

There I saw Ranboo. He smiled, "Hey babe, what were you doin?"

"Uh- I-...I went to the restroom. I really had to go, that's all." I smiled a little.

"Oh alright, well come on now, love." He kissed my cheek and grabbed my hand.

We walked out, then drove back to the house. I wasn't sure what to do....wether to tell him or not. Wether to- abort or not.

\Time Skip\

Ranboo parked the car into the driveway then came around to help me out of the car. We walked inside and then made our way upstairs to his bedroom.

Ranboo locked the door like usual and we kicked off our shoes and layed back down in bed. Ran turned the TV and movie back on then we continued watching.

A few minutes, and all I could think about was the pregnancy test. About what to do in this situation, about who to seek help from. I just...didn't know.

I can't end up like my parents did. Splitting up because of a child that's not even born yet. Gosh, I can't ruin our lives like this. I need to abort- I'm going to abort. I just- I need to break up with Ranboo while the process is going on.

If I'm still with the father of the child, the doctors will want input from the father. But if we split, then he doesn't have to be notified about the pregnancy or child.

Plus, in a week or so I turn 18. No one will ever have to know. And it's better this way, I have to....to break up with Ran- Fuck.

I cleared my throat, "Uhm...can we pause?"

Ranboo paused the movie, "Yeah, what's the matter, cupcake?"

I blushed lightly then shook it off, "Uhm, okay. Look, please don't take this the wrong way. But....I think- I really do need space. A- And time."

He tilted his head, "I don't fully understand. Uh, what do you mean?"

I sighed, "I think...I think we need to take a little break."

His eyes widened, "What?- I- Is it the, I love yous? Cause I can tone it down. Whatever it is, I can change or fix it."

"Ran, you don't need to change or fix anything- I do. I- I need time to figure myself out. Before fully committing to us. Because, I wanna be able to say those words back- But I need time before I can." I tried explaining. It sounded real- but it was almost all complete bullshit.

He gulped, "What do you mean by...a 'break'?"

I sighed, "Like....no labels or strings. I need to be my complete individual. But- in a few weeks, we can be back."

He frowned, "What?"

I held his hand, "In a few weeks we can get back together. If everything works out."

"You expect me to wait for you, while we're broken up?" He scoffed.

I frowned, "I just thought that-"

"Tommy, I'm not stupid. Because I know what this is all about!" He said sounding upset.

He knows?

"You do?" I smiled squeezing his hand.

Well if he knows, then maybe this can go different. As long as he's on board with what I want.

Ranboo POV

I stood and let go of him, "Yeah...I do. It's about, Joshua- isn't it? You just knew that at some point I was gonna give up on the fake boyfriend thing- So you played me. Just to get your ways. And your asking me to wait, because if things don't work out with him- I'll be there to fall back on. Because I love you...But y'know what?- I dunno if I can be."

Tommy stood, "No! It's not about Josh at all! Ranboo, I promise. Our relationship up to this point has been completely about us and my feelings for you. Nothing is about Joshua anymore."

I teared up, "So you're breaking up with me just for what?- Time? I thought we fixed this self conscious issue."

I frowned, "Its more than that- I just want ti-"

"No. You don't want time- You want him. Joshua. Silly me for thinking otherwise. But y'know what? I wont be a backup. I'll win you back before you ever officially get with him. And if you do, I'll stop. Till then- Goodbye Tommy, please get out. Techno can take you home." I sighed looking down at the floor. I didn't want to cry infront of him. Especially not over him and Joshua.

Tommy kissed my cheek, "Please wai-"

"Please don't make this harder." I interrupted him.

He swallowed his words away then walked out. I locked the door and slid down against it. I began softly crying, "I love you Tommy...What happened?"

1,271 words
...Later.