Stupid.
That girl is stupid.
What was she thinking
Did she not think we would notice?
Did she not think I would notice?
Of course, I was keeping a close eye
She almost died the night before
Of course, I was watching
Waiting for her to break
It is not nice to say
I know that was not nice
But Josephine cannot handle herself
Josephine cannot handle J
J knows what she is doing
As we watched Josephine
Swallow the remaining pills
J knew what was happening
And laughed as the pills went down
Laughed as Josephine fell to the floor
Poor Josephine
She is going to have to go through this
Again
And
Again
Because J is not done
J is not done trying to murder Josephine
I thought J was here to do good
I thought J was a good person
I started to trust J and sit in the abyss
Sit in the silence and wait for my turn
My turn to see mom
My turn to talk to Josephine
My turn to live again
But each step I took back
Farther and farther into her mind
I realized how deadly J was
How deadly J is
J lied to me
J said she was a good person
J tried to get me to trust her
J even told me her full name
Jayda
The name of a traitor
The name of a liar
Once Josephine wakes up
I plan on telling her the truth
I plan on helping her
Helping her grow
Helping her live
Helping her get rid of J
The first step is simple
Josephine needs to wake up
Ideally, she will not be suicidal anymore
Ideally, she will run to me for help
Like she always has
Like she always will
Step two is harder
A lot harder
I have to teach Josephine
Something new
Something she has never been able to control
And this is us
J and I
This is a step that I do not know about
This step seems very hard
But it is necessary
Once Josephine can stay up front
Stay in the light
Then J will be locked up forever
She will whisper her mean words
Scream with all her might
But Josephine will hear nothing
Step three is to remove her
I do not even know if this is possible
But I hope it is
For Josephine's sake
I hope we can remove Jayda
YOU ARE READING
It Hurts
General FictionThe story of Josephine. My therapist says I am missing something Something important is missing Does it matter? No. If anything is important I would obviously remember it
