Why Me? (Adopted By Them)

Chapter 20 - Blame It On The Girls

Patrick's Pov.

I wanted to tell Karrie so badly. But I cant. If she finds out it has got to do with her, Phoenix and part of my past, she will take Phoenix away and tell me that she is soooooo sorry but that will be the best way to keep me safe. I don't even know why I did it. Like she said she will wait. So why am I punishing myself. Argh.

I watched the way her lips moved every single time a word fell off them. Just how kissable they were. 'Stop Patrick. Your meant to be depressed.' my mind says to me. I reply back 'Shut up mind. I need to get death and shit like that out of it!' I'm sad I know.

"Patrick, I gotta take a shower now so ill talk later. See ya." I reply back says Okay bye.

I leave the house to go to my 'Happy Place.' On the way I see Ryan and Phoenix. "Hey, where you off to?" She says.

"Places." I reply back.

"Do you wanna go to the park with us and get ice cream?" I nod. She turns back around and I look down to see them holding hands. "Phoenix aren't you with Brendon?" I say. I know its none of my business but I felt like asking. I feel rude so much right now. Stupid mind.

"Yeah we are but me and Ryan can hold hands right?" I nod.

"Ill hold yours to so it doesn't look bad okay?" She says to me. I take her hand in mine. Looking at her hand I see writing on it an anchor on her finger and black nail varnish.

"Is that a tattoo?" I ask rudely, stopping walking during the process.

"No its a fake one. But I want one there. It reminds me of so much. Like What A Catch, Donnie. You know things close to my heart." After she says this, she grabs hold of her tummy and falls to her knees. Ryan holding her hand still, he falls to the ground at her needs. I sit next to her holding her back.

"Phoenix you alright?" Is all I say. She nods and passes out on the floor right there.

I look at Ryan. "Oh My God! What do we do?" I say to him. He shakes his head. "No Phoenix, why did you do that! Oh My God! Just go get everyone and call an ambulance as well! Hospital trip coming up." He says, tears forming his eyes.

I finally get in and shout at everyone. "Guys Phoenix is passed out on the street, come quick. Someone call an ambulance!" I shout, running down the street back to her body laying peacefully on the concrete. Ryan is crying over her body. Everyone turns up. Brendon, Dallon, Alex, Jack, Pete, Karrie, Matt, Taylor and Beth are there at her side. I check her pulse. "She is still breathing but barely. Enough for now until she is hooked up on oxygen." I say. Brendon looks up and sighs. "Ambulance!" He shouts. The paramedics come running towards her, picking her up, placing her on one of them trollies. Wheeling her inside. Me, Brendon, Ryan and Karrie got inside the ambulance. Everyone else would meet us there. They hooked her up to oxygen, took her pulse, heartbeat as well, stuck a needle in her and then put a blanket on her. "She hasent eaten enough so her body has gone weak. Her brain is messing up to from past memories or something and she is really cold. Like super cold." The paramedic says. I just sit there holding her hand, crying my eyes out. Brendon hugging me supporting me through this and Ryan holding her other hand, rubbing circles on it.

Soon enough we arrived at the Hospital. As we rushed through the reception area we could see the others. Phoenix now looking super pale and lifeless. She wont die, hopefully, but she looks the part of it. As we rush to level 3, we stop outside a room. 433. The room she was staying in. We was asked to leave, and go to the waiting area. They did some tests and everything and came to collect us. We walked in her room seeing her body, a tiny bit more colour of her.

"She hasn't been eating properly and has no energy, that's why she is very pale. Her mind is bring back some of her old memories from the car crash she had before?" Dr. Hannah asked. "Yeah our parents died in it, I'm her sister Karrie but according to her I'm her best friend. Its sad but she is getting her memory back, but I can see its not that good either." Karrie says.

"Phoenix is also suffering from coldness. Not as bad as Hypothermia. But quite bad in some cases. Causing her to do this, but that's also from eating. We have given her some injections to give her some life back into her and she will be fine in like 2 days. Possibly up to a week. If she doesn't wake up or we see any difference in her, then I'm so sorry to say this, we will have to give up."

This puts me in tears. I run to her side and hold her hand tightly. I started singing to her. Everyone else followed on and joined in. I was singing her 2 favourite songs, What a catch and Northern Downpour. I could hear and see Karrie crying. So I stopped. I let go of her hand and sat down with the others.

We all said goodbye to Phoenix as we had to go home. I was silent the whole way back home. As soon as we got in, I went straight upstairs and said. "This couldn't be any better could it. First me, now Phoenix, possibly Brendon and argh! Why is it too much to handle!" I say to myself. I hear a knock and see Karrie at the door. I was letting a few tears flow down my cheek. She walked over wiping it and hugging me. "Patrick there is something your not telling me. Please Patrick." I let go of her and sit on the edge of my bed. "If I told you, you'll make me promise. Which I cant do. Karrie I'm not ready yet. Ill tell you when I am. I'm sorry though. That's all I can say." She nods. Kisses my lips and walks out, turning off my light. "Okay, night Patrick." She leaves and shuts the door. I touch my lips. Then I pinch myself hoping this was all a dream. But it was real. Unfortunately it was real.

I place my head on my pillow and close my eyes. Feeling sleep take over and whisk me away into dreamland.

A/N

i'm a horrible person aren't I! Ha! Hope you like it though. ENJOY! Don't cry too much otherwise you'll need to craft! :D