Why Me? (Adopted By Them)

Chapter 29 - Shut Up!

Phoenix's pov.
I can't sleep. It's just physically impossible right now. I'm crying hard and I can't stop. It's unbearable. My life is over and it's all the little shits fault called Ryan Fucking Ross who in fact turned out to be an asshole! Here is how it started.

Karrie's pov.
I woke up in my bed. I'm feeling good about today. Only problem is there is a note on my bed and I'm scared as hell. It's probably from Patrick saying I've found someone better than you. My hopes would be crushed. He lied to me. I pick up the letter and it reads
Dear Phoenix (karrie),
Karrie do me a huge favour and give this to her when she is in a talking mood because I don't want to piss her off even more. Thanks.
Anyway Phoenix I'm sorry but I can't deal with all the shit that's been happening. I lost you for a week, Patrick is fucked up and wants to hurt himself and me and Brendon got in a huge fight. All I had left was Karrie. I love you Phoenix but I can't take it anymore. It's broken my heart that you won't talk to me at all. I don't even kiss you anymore and I miss the feeling of your lips. But I'm trying to say is that Phoenix I'm leaving and never coming back. I love you okay remember that but I don't think I love you as much as I did before. You have Brendon who will look after you if he doesn't kick him in the balls and pour hot melting caramel on him. Don't actually do that it's dangerous but ball kicking is fine. So Phoenix this is my goodbye.
Ryan Ross xxx.

I look over the letter making sure I read it right. Patrick is harming himself and Ryan fucking leaves her. Oh my what is she gonna do! I'm absolutely terrified and so scared of her reaction right now. I'll just never tell her. But that won't work as she will realise Ryan has gone. Oh what am I going to do. Ryan you little shit. I generally hate you now!

I leave my bedroom and put the note in my pocket. I walked down the corridor and made my way into the kitchen.
"Oh you up then. How you feeling today?" I say to Phoenix passing through the living room to one of my favourite places of the house.
"Meh." Is all I get.
"Meh really? Come on you must be feeling better. Want any food?"
"No."
"No to what? Be pacific about what your talking about!" I shout at her from the kitchen.
"NO TO BOTH NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP!" She yells at me.
"Woah what's going on in here? What's with all the shouting?" Brendon says.
"Phoenix got mad. It's okay I'll take the blame once again and you will probably blame this on me to!" I threw the letter at her face. I stomped out the room and into my bedroom. Slamming my door in the process. I feel bad now but Phoenix needs a reality check.
I hear a scream a few seconds later but think nothing of it. She can be a bitch for all I care. I sit on my bed, ear phones in blasting music as loud as possible. I decide to have a bath and run the water. A little while later I get in with a book. The amazing book is not on fire because Dan Howell and Phil Lester are amazing. Never met them though, but I would love too. I get in and read a little before putting it down and relax in the bath.

Phoenix's pov.
I grab the bit of paper Karrie chucked at me. Opening it up I read the letter. There was a bit at the back and that was for my eyes only. It read,
Phoenix, I've never loved someone as much as I've loved you but it's gone to far and I can't deal with it anymore. I'm so sorry but I love you too much for this to go on. Phoenix don't even biter looking for me or trying to get in contact because there is no point. I'm sorry Phoenix. Hope you see where I'm coming from. Lots of love,
                         Ryan Ross xxx.

I cry. That's all I do. Then I let out the hugest scream ever. I get up and smash a vase near by. "What the actual fuck are you doing Phoenix?!" Brendon says to me.
"Oh you can fuck off to another country for all i care, you low life self centered bitch!" I scream at him. I drop to the floor and ball my eyes out. He picks up the letter, reading it. He looks at me after and hugs me. "Phoenix I'm sorry."
"No I'm sorry it's all my fault! I should of died! I just can't take it anymore Brendon. I loved him, like I love you. But something is missing in me now and I can't fix it Brendon. I'm sorry. I just- I just want it go back how it was. Me in that adoption home with my best mate Karrie who I've pissed off and just sitting there until the day someone would actually love me for me. Because this seemed to happen well. All I've done is caused stress. I'm so sorry."
He holds me tighter.
"Shut the fuck up, Phoenix. You haven't caused nothing. I'm sorry for being an asshole to you okay. Now let's calm down and talk properly okay. Cause I can't think straight when you hurt. Okay?" I nod.
That's how it started. And that's when I wished it had all ended.

A/N
Well that was unexpected. I saw Fall Out Boy on Sunday 11th October. Was anyone there? It was awesome. Also I have tabinof and username: Evie!!! Whoop whoop! Haha so how have you guys been? Sorry I haven't updated in a while tho but hiiiiiii cx and don't kill meh!