THE CRY OF SWAN SONG - sokeefe

Chapter 20 - Fitz POV

A/N: Hey guys guess whose back for an epic Stellarlune release day chappie! No spoilers but I think this is gonna be one we are ALL gonna enjoy ;). I'm hearing that Chap 42 is quite interesting. Buttttt I haven't read it yet, I still need to order it but im in Australia, im lazy and it's nearing Christmas time so I might get it then. 

And yes I'm back for a special chapter for each of my books! <3 I know...I'm awesome. 

I actually just finished all my exams and got my results back and im happier knowing I studied properly for Science and got a good mark. And same for Japanese. I got 100%!

Let's get to it!

Biana was in tears. I tried to comfort everyone at the same time. But it was no use. Everyone was either panicked or in tears or kind of on the verge of a total breakdown. I wrapped a free arm around Biana and was helping Elwin hold a purple sludgy liquid in the other. Forkle burst in red in the face. 

"No." Forkle whispered hurrying to Sophie's side. 

"She can't heal her own mind...."Forkle whispered. "She's lost."

The whole room went quiet as Forkle solemnly stood. "She's as good as dead."

Silence engulfed the room and its occupants. Fitz didn't need to be an empath to know that everyone was feeling guilty or sad or angry, mainly at themselves, especially himself. He was a terrible boyfriend and Sophie didn't deserve this. Not after everything she had done for everyone. Not for all the tears and the battles and the blood and the people that she mourned. Not the sacrifice along the way. Not for any of that. She had fought harder, the battles were taken seriously and she always cared. For everyone, and not just for one person. But for the scars she had healed but still weren't 100%

Calla

Kenric

The Forkle Twin

And the fact that she never knew her real mom for 14 years. 

He was lousy and knew it. Sophie definitely liked Keefe better. But damn....he was just hoping that once in his life Keefe wouldn't steal the spotlight like always. I know Keefe thinks he lousy but he's not. He gets all the girls, all the grades, much more popular and liked than me and he's better for Sophie.

Better.

A word often used to describe things more desirable, a better outcome for example. Something overall more useful, more wanted. And Keefe fit that category in Sophie's opinion. 

Yeah. That was it. 

Sure Keefe didn't have especially great parents but thats not his family. I looked to Sophie. We were his family. Family isn't just some blood related people but people you feel safe with, people you feel respect you and lately I hadn't been like that to Keefe. Because I let Sophie come between us. And no matter how hard he tried to stay friends I pushed him away. I pushed our life long friendship away. For a girl. Family is supposed to be forever. I swallowed. But this family fell apart under the pressure. And now, I don't know if it's too late. Because I was a jerk, but I just wanted to be someone Sophie valued. 

I looked to those depthful brown sparkling eyes, so full and yet so empty. I thought back to the time I had shown her the lost cities. Wow, her curiousity was her natural form of beauty. And her intellegence. And I remember just how I fell in this fake form of "love". Artifical even. I spent more time with her, she finally liked me, for me. And I felt some sort of love and I felt some sort of validation. I respected her, but maybe in the end respect wasn't what she was looking for,but love. and affection and attraction And I couldnt give her that feeling, the feeling where she knew everything would be alright if I was with her. And that feeling of love was missing. And maybe she even felt validated, maybe even equal. But at the end of the day she was in love, a crush yes, but in love with the concept of love. The feeling of contentness and that was something she was still adjusting too. And I blew it. I took advantage of her weakness and just, took advantage of that, of her newness to our world, to her world. Damn. I was a bad guy. The fact that I took advantage. And maybe that was what was wrong, 

And maybe it wasnt meant to be.

So I let go of Biana and set down the elixir. And I squeezed her hand, a form of goodbyes.

And maybe that was all it was meant to be.

A goodbye

A reminder of who we are. 

I looked into her eyes with love one last time. 

A reminder of who we can be. 

A/N: Short chapter! But hope you enjoy Stellarlune!

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