You're not alone

Is this a new friendship?

- [...] By the way... What's your name...?

- My name is Himari...

- That's a cute name, I like it!

He makes a smile and it kinda warms my heart. It's just that he decided to open up a little and that kinda makes me feel good for myself. It looks like that I can make someone trust me. We keep talking about arts and stuff. He likes animation movies and Coldplay's music. He doesn't like horror movies and gummies. He is actually really interesting person. I think I was wrong, I found someone just like me, THAT'S AMAZING!

**Time skip**

The school is over and I am going back home, I think I had actually fun with him. He is a good guy but too innocent in my opinion. We have a lot in common and we understand eachother's preferences. It's pretty funny the fact that 5 hours before I was trying to find out why is he being more weird than me. But I don't understand why would he choose to be alone while he is a such a cool dude. It's kinda stupid.

I'm back home, I'm taking off my shoes and I sit on the couch. I look on my photo with my mother and I'm thinking. Why did I choose to be alone? What did make me think of it as a better way? Maybe it is because I am alone since my 11 years old? My parents had divorced and my mother died of cancer. No it's not that. Is it because I can't get close to somebody because I don't have the same interests as them? Fuck it, I don't know...
Why is my life so complicated?-

**Phone rings**

- Hello?

~H-hi Himari, it's me, Yuto. I just wanted to say that you forgot your jacket and... I didn't manage to find you when the lesson was over.... So I took it with me. Is it ok?~

Jeez he is acting too innocent for some reason. Or he is just too much of a nice guy.

- Oh thanks, please don't forget to take it tomorrow with you.

- Yes, yes! Of course!

- So, see ya tomorrow...

- Y-yes...

I hang up the phone and I fall on the couch. Oof... It's so hard to have a new friend...

**Alarm clock**

- Aahhhhhh....

I close the alarm clock and I feel so powerless. Like I can't even get up, like I am gonna die if I get up. But who cares now, I get up and I go to have breakfast. I'm thinking to fry one egg with some beacon, favourite and classic! I start cooking and I put some music to listen 'cause I'm still kinda sleepy. I put some Gun's and roses as I keep cooking

The food's ready, time to eat. I eat my breakfast really fast and I start getting ready for school. This might be the first time in my life which I don't know why am I trying to find something to wear. Most of the times I just pick one t-shirt and one pair of pants and I'm leaving but now I find nothing good! Why do I act like this. BRING MY OLD SELF BACK!

I'm going to school I get into the class and I see Yuto drawing something on the board. It's looks like a cat having in her mouth a sunflower

- It's amazing!

- And it's not even finished hehe

- Seriously you're very talented, are you going to study arts?

- Well that's what I'm planning I guess

- You're not sure yet?

- Yes and no... It's complicated, he looks at me with a smile and kinda blushed cheeks

- Well I want to study arts too, I'm not that good with sketching as you see but I like it a a lot

- Is that so? May I see some pieces of work of yours?

- Oh yes!

Open my bag and I take out my sketchbook. My sketchbook is filled with flowers or ladies who are inspired by some flowers. It's really interesting to take an object and suddenly transform it into a human on your paper.

- Holy shit, that's awesome! Did you make them by yourself, without looking to a model or something?

- Exactly, all by myself, I say proudly and looking at my sketchbook.

- I think you should also be a fashion designer. All the girls who are inspired by flowers are having amazing clothes

- Aww thank you so much!

I don't know why but I have never been happier before, someone actually cared about my sketchbook and all I've done. I'm so glad that someone found me as not a weirdo. I know that I said that I don't care but you cannot always keep your ears closed, it's pretty tiring sometimes.
I don't know why but I feel some butterflies in my stomach, but not the ones when you're in love or whatever, the ones that are happy with you.

- Oh by the way I forgot to give you your jacket haha

He goes to his seat and takes my jacket. Comes closer to me and that's it. I wear the jacket and I hear him say

- You look awesome in it, I mean it

- Thank you, it was my mother's jacket. She bought it when she was pregnant with me

- Interesting, so it means a lot to you huh?

I nod my head and I hear my classmates coming, I go back to my seat and I see everything filled with noise again. If it was one week ago I would be pissed off but right now I feel nothing. I only feel the friendship who's growing between me and Yuto

Hello Penny-san here i know that this chapter is a bit too short but I promise I will try to not be lazy while I want to keep writing 😂