You're not alone

As a couple (part 1)

So where did we stopped.... Oh right, Yuto... HOLY SHIT, I DIDN'T SEE THAT COMING. I can't stop thinking about it, I mean it was just so unexpected from his side. That was really really really hot. But yeah back to where we started.

When Yuto pulled himself back I opened my eyes slowing and I found me seduced by his actions and by his hot as hell appearance in the rain. Red checks, wet black hair and his eyes locked on mine. I had totally lost my words after that kiss, with someone like Yuto transforming into a sexy and romantic person made totally lost my mind again. In the end, he kissed my forehead and asked:

"So do you understand the reason?"

The only thing I managed to do was to nod my head and keep looking at him, dizzy like I have drunk twenty bottles of wine. Some minutes later while we were in the silence of realization, he looked at me again and told me.

- What are we now Himari-san?

- What do you mean?...

He came in front of me and held my hand while I was totally confused with all what happened.

- I mean, are we together or are we still friends?

- Oh... I...

My mind was empty, I didn't know what to answer. I was lost in the memory of me and him kissing again and again. How was I supposed to be focused on him talking while 2 minutes ago his lips were crushing mine.

- Hey... You don't have to force yourself for this, I understand, he smiled.

- No, it's not that but I think you probably should have known my answer since I kissed you back...

He and I turned red and he looked at me shocked by my answer. I was actually happy for the first time in my life. It needed 15 years to feel this happy for some reason.

So coming back to the present with me on my bed and my face in my pillow hiding my blushing mess. Still can realise that I am someone's girlfriend and I have a boyfriend. How did I go from 0 to 100? What the hell! What a day... Everything changed so suddenly, everything changed from bad to good. To be honest I am not used to that kind of changes, I was always trying to look into the future to be ready for every sad thing that will happen to me because that's how my life is since.... Ever.

All I'm doing right now is thinking of him. I've never experienced kissing before and from what I've known, this was the best thing ever. It was totally a pleasure, something unbelievable to feel. It was the feeling of the first time of something new. Undescribable!

The only thing that worries me is what is going to happen tomorrow. Now me and him are a couple and I don't know what am I supposed to do with this kind of situation. I've never had a love interest in someone before so I don't what am I going to do with someone I will call "boyfriend". I'm not even sure if I can trust myself about my feelings for someone. How can I be so sure about something I've never felt? Well I guess we'll figure it out tomorrow for sure.

**Time skip to the next day**

I open my eyes and I still can't figure out what am I supposed to do with Yuto. I haven't slept all night! What am I gonna do when I see him? What is he going to do? The only thing I can do, I guess, is to wait until then. I hope Yuto is at least less confused than me but who am I kidding! Yuto is probably way worse than me, he is just too UwU!

On my way to school, I see things brighter than before. Since Yuto and I kissed, I feeling everything around me much more bright, like it has a positive vibe. And I'm asking, if this is how every people feel after their first kiss then how are they going to feel after they have sex for first time? Is it me or I do feel scared of what is going to happen to me?!
When I get into the classroom, I see him with his headphones. He is probably listening to some music but as I see him now, I find him more and more attractive than before. Who would have guessed that I would fall for an emo-uwu boy!

He sees me and takes off his headphones immediately. He stands up and comes closer to me

- Himari-san!

As he is in front of me, his movement is awkward as mine because we don't know what should we do now as a lovey-dovey couple. In the end we just hug each other as a "good morning" thing.

- How are you Himari?

- I guess I'm pretty good, how about you Yuto?

- M-me...?

I'm sure what he has on his mind right now. He's probably thinking about when we kissed like I do. I see him sweating and I also don't know what to do to calm him down. What if I kiss him...?

- Hey Himari-san...

- Yes?

- I don't want to force you to answer me but... Do you still want to be my girlfriend? I mean it's ok if you don't want to, but-

- Do you wanna talk about it... At my house and watch some kind of anime?

- H-huh...?

WHAT THE HELL DID I JUST DO!? Am I actually serious?! He is going to think that I am a whore who got her first kiss and she has the lust for more. Oh my god I should take it back... Should I or not?

- Ok, Himari... Today?

- What... Oh yes yes! Is it ok after school?

He nods and the school ring rang at the time he goes back to his seat. My whole class is coming inside, the only thing I have in my mind right now is how fucked up I am for him. And I have a question about all the couples.

Is this how being in relationship feels?