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Kirti fed a sleepy kai, she refused to let him go to bed without eating but after a couple of bites of pasta the cub fell asleep, she laid him in bed placing his tata plushie next to him and switching on the galaxy lamp by his bedside.

she let the hot water hit her sore points, applying the pine-scented shampoo she massaged her scalp, not wanting to take long in the shower, she towel dried her hair, putting on her mang t-shirt and her underwear, she decided to get a glass of water before bed.

making her way downstairs she found that the tv was on and kiraan was awake, taking in his appearance she felt a heat course through her, he sat in nothing but his grey sweats, shirtless and hair wet looking freshly showered.

" baby?"

she had been caught staring at him making her feel more embarrassed " hey, can't sleep?" he nodded and moved over making a place for her to sit beside him. kiraan gulped taking in her attire, making his wolf restless, being so close to his mate her scent driving him crazy " yeah"

being bold Kirti moved closer to him and laid her head on his shoulder, smiling he placed his arm around pulling her as close as possible to him. " care to tell me exactly how tyra came about?:. she found herself playing with his fingers again, it helped her calm down and clear her thoughts.

"Ummm after my last so-called heartbreak, you could say the worst of all well we did not date but I thought we both shared the same feelings I was wrong, I ended up getting sick like extremely sick, I thought it was due to the emotions I was feeling, but the heartbreak triggered my demon, my Valkyr so to speak, my parents well they were shocked to realize that I had inherited the gene from granny, hell I was surprised too since I expected to be a wolf, after realizing that I won't be able to control my abilities here, hades came to take me under his wing with his wife so I think it was for about 3 months that I spent in the underworld learning about this aspect of my life, I was not a late bloomer or anything but I had to deal with a lot before Tyra could come out, to understand someone's soul hence none of my relationships lasted"

"Tadeas as been down there a couple of times and caught a whiff of your scent but never actually got to see who you were since they were so protective of you, still are threatening to ruin me if I hurt you, umm how many relationships were you in?"

" one serious one, that lasted five years, the rest were more a learning curve you could say? since I never actually went out with them but yeah, I cringe every time I realize how immature I was, my idea of love was so warped you know like I thought that I had to give into every single one of their demands just to keep the relationship, I was not okay with being alone in that sense, I felt like I needed male validation to be happy, but after the last incident I started paying attention to me like every time I went through something like this I did not heal, I say I would wait but the moment someone showed interest in I fell for it, but I kept falling into the same toxic cycle. I did not heal myself hence I found myself in the same situation and after listening to bts I realized I could only actually love myself if I let go of the toxins I gathered during those times, I made peace with being alone, yeah I relapsed now and again but I found myself reacting to situations differently, I understood that god's plan is best I just need to trust in them, that the people that are removed from my life no matter how bad I want them to stay is for my benefit, that there is something better out there for me, we all have qualities that make us toxic but it's the choices we make that help us, we should not let it be this is how I am take it or leave we need to grow and the only way to do that is to tackle our toxic traits".

I felt myself being picked up and placed on his lap resuming our position from the previous night but this time I was much more aware " how? how after everything relapsed and all you chose to believe in faith?".

I smiled at the alpha the only look in his eyes was adoration " because I am here with you, cause I could have ended my life last night, I wanted to but a part of me deep down screamed for help and you heard that silent scream, my silent plea for someone to save me"

kiraan felt his heart leap there was so much emotion put into those words she had uttered and the bond alone made it known that she had meant every single one not wanting to ruin the moment by doing something drastic he cradled her into his chest, even though the one question he wanted to ask her was still lingering he decided to ask her tomorrow.