Dear George

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Dear George,

I know we haven't spoken much other than updating each other through text.We've both been equally busy so we can't talk much.

I really appreciate the way you find time to update me on what's going on with you. I know I respond late sometimes but I have no control over it whatsoever.

And thank you for the flowers and chocolate you mailed me. I love the little "I love you" note you left for me in between the flowers.

I was wrong the first time, this is now the happiest I've ever been. I love where I'm at as of the moment. I never want this feeling to end. I know I say it in almost all my letters but it's true, you make me feel the happiest ever.

I'm also proud of you for getting a promotion! We should go out to dinner to celebrate once. You know, once we actually get our schedules cleared up.

I know we've both been busy as fuck right now but the gift exchanging feels like you're edging me. We don't even talk but I can really feel the amount of effort you're putting to make sure I don't feel forgotten.

Oh! And I will definitely tell you this story in person but my coworker who just recently had a child and I swear it's the cutest shit ever until it starts crying.

I always ask myself if I want one or not. If I do have one, I don't want it now. With my busy schedule, I'll have no time for them and would end up traumatizing it. Oh great now I have baby fever. I'd be a great mother right? Maybe I could leave the shit cleaning and vomit stuff to anyone helping me. I can't imagine wiping someone's ass that isn't mine.

"It's a baby Iana" Do I look like I give a fuck? it shits bro.

Okay I know we've been going out for like 3 months but I swear, our child would be fucking beautiful. Give it my eyes, your cheeks, my nose, your mouth, and your curly hair. Or maybe we can just make a mini you and it would look so fucking cute.

I feel like if I were to replicate you through our child together, I'd love it more than you. Like you're so adorable now, what more when you were a child? Like did you always have rosy cheeks? I'm literally squealing at the image of you as a baby holy hell you're so cute.

Next time you send me a gift, can you send like an old photo album filled with you as a baby? I need to see my baby as a baby. Gross I don't like calling you baby. Or do you like it? I won't stop if you do.

I'm sorry if my thoughts are all over the place. I just really miss you so much. I want to see you so badly just to be with you. Please just say you have diarrhea and call me in the bathroom because I miss your stupid voice.

Love Iana <3