Eutopia (Lloyd Hansen AU)

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It has been a good couple of hours before Autumn hear the door to the basement being broken down. Claire woke at the sound and looked at her. "Is it him?" She asked cautiously, probably meaning Lloyd.

"No" Autumn said, getting up and grabbing Margot from her cot. "Stay behind me, ok?"

Claire quickly came and stood behind her before the door was broken down and shouts could now be heard, along with footsteps on the stairs. "Sir! We found her!" A CIA agent now calling up, putting his gun away.

More footsteps, but this time it was a familiar face.

"Oh my god, Donald" Autumn breathed a sigh of relief that it was him and not some agents that had come to arrest her or something.

Claire immediately ran to her uncle, who now looked around and then at Autumn. "You alright Agent?" He asked, eyes now falling onto the baby in her arms. "Oh geez, it's worse than I thought..." Muttering to himself. He'd seen other former agents - some with children, some expecting. It was as though he'd stepped into a breeding ground. 

"Where's Lloyd?" She now asked.

Donald gestured for her to follow him. "Let's just focus on getting you out of here, then we can talk".

"No". She all but yelled. "Where is he?"

Donald sighed, "Dead...I'm sorry..."

"What..."

That wasn't right, he couldn't be?

"He and Six were up against one another...I had my chance, so I put a bullet into him".

Her head began to spin, vision blurred, and she suddenly felt some arms around her to stop her from falling, Donald now ordering someone to take the baby and to help get her out of there as soon as possible.

She couldn't function. It was like she'd lost all control of her body, wanting to cry, scream, lash out, but she couldn't.

Then everything turned black.

**

Autumn woke to find herself in what she remembered to the medical facility within the CIA building. Sitting up quickly and looking around. "Where's Margot?" She called frantically over to the doctor who now came over to her. "Where's my baby?" 

"Agent Miller, glad to see you're awake, How are you feeling?" 

"It's Hansen" She corrected him with a glare, "Where the hell is my daughter". 

"She's safe, being looked after while you were undergoing tests. She's in good health". The doctor said, now checking her blood pressure that she could feel rising. 

"I want her here now." 

The doctor nodded and radioed for a colleague to bring Margot to Autumn's room. "Do you know where you are?" 

"Of course I fucking do! I'm back at the CIA HQ". 

"and you remember what happened?" 

"Fitzroy told me that my husband was dead...and then I passed out". 

The doctor nodded. "Fitzroy was concerned for you Autumn. He thinks that once you have taken in everything that's happened, that seeing one of our therapists would be beneficial. You've been through a lot, not just you but other agents too". 

A tear slipped down her cheek. "What do I do now? Where do I go? I have nowhere..." The only thing she had was Margot. Everything had been taken from her and now she wasn't even sure exactly who she was anymore. 

She wasn't Agent Miller. She wasn't Autumn Hansen, even though she still had the same. She didn't really have any identity to go by. 

An agent walked in with Margot and passed her to Autumn who held her close. "Donald has arranged housing for all the women of the project, as well as therapy and other things that may help them to readapt to normal life". The doctor explained to her. 

Autumn swallowed. "You make it sound as though it was hell...but it wasn't..." She looked at him, unaware of just how dead her stare seemed to him. 

"Autumn...I know you went through some things. You were married to the main man who was behind the project. They're gonna want to talk to you about his intentions, what went on and..." 

"Please just stop talking". She now snapped. "Please..." Her voice went quiet. "Lloyd may have been sociopath, but I got to know him. I had to...and though I didn't expect it? I fell in love with him, just as he did with me. He adored his daughter. It was a side he only showed me, no one else". 

The doctor simply nodded. "Well, that is something that you can discuss with your therapist...I'm sorry about what happened". 

"No you're not" She looked away from him, keeping a firm hold of Margot. "No one is sorry because of who he was. Only I will know that, and you may think he brainwashed me or whatever other crazy theories you all have. But he didn't. He was just himself". 

Taking the chance to leave, the doctor slipped out so as she could spend time with Margot. 

The tears came. 

The denial. 

The unacceptance of what had happened and just how this had all ended. 

Lloyd was gone, and now Autumn had to learn to live again.