The Mirror

You Don't Know Me

I sit in my room and look at the time, Niall is coming over today to hang out and I have time until he gets here.. I might as well.... I reach under my bed and grab my guitar, I reach for my song book and flip to the page. I position my fingers on the strings and play.

"Did I say something stupid?

There goes one more mistake

Do I bore you with my problems?

Is that why you turn away?

Do you know how hard I've tried

To become what you want me to be

Take me, this is all that I've got

This is all that I'm not, all that I'll ever be

I've got flaws, I've got faults

Keep searching for your perfect heart

It doesn't matter who you are

We all have our scars, we all have our scars

You say don't act like a child

But what if it's a father I need?

It's not like you don't know

What you got yourself into

Don't tell me I'm the one who's naïve

Do you know how hard I've tried

To become what you want me to be

Take me, this is all that I've got

This is all that I'm not, all that I'll ever be

I've got flaws, I've got faults

Keep searching for your perfect heart

It doesn't matter who you are

We all have our scars, we all have our scars

Come on, just let it go

These are things you can't control

Your expectations, your explanations

Don't make sense to me

You and your alternatives

Don't send me to your therapist

Deep down I know what you mean

And I'm not sure that's what I wanna be

Take me, this is all that I've got

This is all that I'm not, all that I'll ever be

I've got flaws, I've got faults

Keep searching for your perfect heart

It doesn't matter who you are

We all have our scars, we all have our scars

Did I say something stupid?

There goes one more mistake." I close my eyes as I whisper the last words. I hear clapping from the door and jump about 5 feet and then fall off the bed onto the bed my guitar falling on top of me. I look up and see a blonde irish kid standing in my bedroom doorway and flip him off. "how did you get in?" I ask getting up from the floor. "Your Mom let me in." he walks over and hugs me "sorry I scared you" he whispered I shivered from the contact and smiled, I hadn't felt like this since Alan. "It's okay" I whisper back, we let go of the embrace and I sit down. "So how long were you standing there?" I question my cheeks burning with embarrassment. "Long enough to know that you are an amazing singer." he smiles and grabs my guitar off the floor, "Did you know that I play guitar?" he asks strumming a few chords, I shook my head and he smirked. "You wanna hear?" He asks glancing at me and I nod shivering and shaking trying to rap my mind around the fact that I think i'm starting to like him. I haven't liked anyone since Alan I have noticed guys but I haven't liked them. I don't want to get hurt again but I also want to get to know Niall better.

"So what do you wanna do now?" I ask throwing a bouncy ball at the wall and catching it. He shrugs and thinks for a minute, he takes out his phone and takes a picture of me. "Hey! hahaha why'd you do that??" I ask laughing "I don't know I like having pictures of my friends, "Lemme see" I smile and crawl over to him. I look at the picture, I look gross. I'm in the middle of a smile with my glasses on and my hair in a bun. "Delete it" I say "Why?" "Because I look gross." He laughs and shakes his head, but deletes it. "Than take a selfie so I can have a picture of you" He says and hands me his phone. "Okay" I say, I take my hair down and let my hair cascade down my back, I take off my sweatshirt revealing my 'Love Never Fades' shirt. I snap a few selfies and hand it back. He looks at them and smiles, "#Wallpaper" he says in the most basic white girl voice I have ever heard. "Jesus you sound whiter then the white girls!" I laugh he smiles and hugs me. "What was that for?" I ask smiling and blushing slightly "I don't know you were just really adorable right then and I wanted to hug you" He says and smiles and blushes slightly whilst looking at the floor. I look right at him and smile so wide I was blushing a lot and giggling a little bit. "Really? how?" I ask smiling still "I don't know your just really cute" he says smiling and I smirk and hug him "thank you" I whisper "For what?" he whispers back, his breath warm on my neck. "For complimenting me not many people do" I speak tingles flying all up and down my body, butterflies swarming in my stomach. He pulls back slightly our faces now only inches apart. "I only say it when it's true," I see his eyes look down to my lips and I look at his, "and the truth is your not cute.." he pauses looking to my lips again and biting his lips, I feel my stomach churn as I look at him, he is intensely sexy. "The truth is," He starts again "Your not cute, Your beautiful." He starts to lean in, our lips are just about to touch when my sister comes bursting through the door. We whip apart as fast as we can and she winks at me and closes the door. "She's a meaner" Niall says pouting and I giggle, he sticks his tongue out and smiles.

"I feel like I've known you for years" Niall says looking at my ceiling, "Yeah" I reply knowing perfectly well that he doesn't know me at all. Nobody does.

I look at him and think, "You don't know me"

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Hey I hope that you liked this, I kinda wanted to introduce the idea of Carli and Niall together, let me know how you think I did in the comments below, and give me some feedback and suggestions. Hit that vote button for me and stay beautiful!

 Love, Carli