The Mirror

I don't know

"I miss you"  The words slip out of his mouth like they are nothing like they are perfectly fine that they can't physically and mentally harm you. They shouldn't but they just did, these three little words have made me sick. I'm incapable to breathe right now I can hardly blink. I don't know what to do what to say,  all I can do is stand there while he waits for me to reply. After what seems like forever of just staring at each other I finally speak. "I miss you two..., but-but" *sigh* "you hurt me, you cheated on me and I don't know that I'll be able to trust you again. I don't want to be in a relationship were there's no trust. I don't want to get hurt again, I can't get hurt again Alan." I stare at the ground for a couple seconds then look into his blue eyes, he seems to be processing it. "Alan I'm sorry, I-I I am moving on and so should you. I am interested in someone right now and I think he is interested in me to, find a girl Alan and treat her well, like she's your princess. You deserve to be happy and I have accepted that that's not with me" I finish, he blinks then speaks, "Carli, I still love you and i'll respect your decision but if you change your mind..." he trails off and I nod, I walk back to my car and drive away.

The whole way back to my house I think of Niall, I start thinking about everything thats happened between us when the radio starts playing falling for you by Colbie Caillat....

I don't know but I think I'm maybe
Fallin' for you dropping so quickly
Maybe I should keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I know you better

I am trying not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life and now I found you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm falling for you.
I'm falling for you.

As I'm standing here and you hold my hand
Pull me towards you and we start to dance

All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling.
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life and now I found you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I'm fallin' for you.

Oh, I just can't take it
My heart is racing
Emotions keep spinning out.

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life and now I found you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I'm fallin' for you.

I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I'm fallin' for you.

Oh
Oh no no
Oh

Oh, I'm falling for you

I think I'm falling in love with Niall. 

      I pull up to my house and I see a familiar car in the driveway. Niall's. I get out of my truck and shut the door, sighing I head to the door. I open the door and there's Niall and Ilsa, as soon as I walk in there heads snap to me. "What's up??" I ask with my eyebrow quirked, "I think I'll leave you guys alone" Ilsa grins and winked at me, she walks out and Niall stands up. I walk over to the couch and he sits down, "Sooo???" I ask and he smiles "I just wanted to see if you wanted to hangout" He says and I nod smirking "Well I'd love to.. wanna go to my room???" He nods his head and smirks winking at me. We head upstairs and I open the door, Ilsa leaves the room and says she's going out. We sit down on my bed and he looks at me, "Should we keep going from where we left off?" He smirks and I nod. 

     We are kissing.. making out when I start kissing his jawline and I kiss his earlobe and gently tug on it with my teeth, earning a groan from Niall, I leave a trail of kisses down his neck when he stops me and pulls his shirt off throwing it to the floor. Niall flips me over and now we are laying on my bed, he starts rubbing my stomach up and down making me moan. I push him off and wiggle my eyebrows at him. "well I think thats enough for today" I laugh when I see the bulge in his pants, I pat his head of hair and grab his shirt for him. "Carli?" He blurts out from behind me, I turn around and he opens his mouth to speak. "I know we haven't known each other long but I was wondering... do you want to be my... uh girlfriend?" his eyes are wide as if he regrets asking as soon as the words come out of his mouth. I mentally giggle and just as I'm about to answer my phone starts ringing. It's Doug.

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