Silently Breaking My Heart

Chapter 6

Hi everyone!!! Slow update. I know.... :( It's been like 3 months and yesh I feel oh so very badly about it!!! I would say updates will get better but it really just depends on everything in the world! But I will try. Also I'm learning the guitar!!! :O Yay! It's so fun!!! BAR CHORDS!!!! XD

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"Victoria." Rebecca said seriously taking my shoulders in her hands. As she stared into my eyes I half expected her to say it was a bad, stupid idea and to just start dating Erik. The other half didn't know what she would say....... "Wyatt is a really good guy and as a psychologist person I think we should listen to him. He's smart and funny and who knows! You might just fall in love with him instead!!!"

A blush miraculously appeared on my face and snaked down my neck. "Umm.... I don't think that's...." Before I could finish my sentence I lost train of thought at the look on Wyatt's face. He had the most devious smile on his face as his eyes wildly waggled up and down. "Oh god!" I laughed making him break his creepy stalking facade and join in. "I love Wyatt so much! You know that, but it's just different."

She nodded sadly. "I just think that Erik already got his chance. I don't want you getting hurt again... But oh well, no one listens to lil old me!"

"That is not true!" I protested. "Everyone listens to you; you're a born leader."

"Okay okay... So what if that was rubbish? I wanted to say it so I said it! Anyway, let's get back in there and show him what he's missing."

"Mmmmm sounds fun...." Wyatt said pulling me in to his hard abs. I fought a blush and ran from him and through the doors.

"Where have you three been?" Kelly asked suggestively, and by his face I knew exactly what he was implying.

"I was just getting on to the 'lovely couple' for not telling their best friend about their little secret." Rebecca said feigning hurt. I almost felt bad for a moment before remembering that we really weren't keeping a secret relationship from her.

"I'm sorry Becca darling." Wyatt said reaching over and pinching her cheek like she was a little girl. Her nose scrunched up and her eyes burned a hole in his face. Wyatt chuckled nervously and backed toward me for protection.

"I'll protect you, you big baby!" I was only joking but judging by everyone's expressions they thought I was flirting. Wyatt winked in my direction and I rolled my eyes in return but the blush gave it away. Instead of putting my foot in my mouth again I put some pizza there in its place.

Chewing it slowly I tried to concentrate on the taste instead of the messed up world around me. Kind of gooey.... and the sauce tasted too..... tomato-y.

"You like the pizza?" A sudden mouth appeared at my ear making me choke slightly. He then chuckled, making the nerves on my neck in high alert.

"It's okay." I said trying to back away. His arm around my waist prevented it entirely. It just felt too good... Too damn perfect! I knew that Wyatt wasn't the one but I hadn't had much experience with guys and just the proximity was nice. I wasn't supposed to like this.... "I'll be right back!" I said abruptly standing up making his hand slide down my body until he quickly pulled away.

Rebecca looked up and seeing the look on my face rose to her feet as well. Without a word we went to the ladies room. As soon as we were inside I began to frantically pace. "Vic?" She said hesitantly. "What is it?"

"Did you see him in there?!"

"Yeah he was rather touchy...." She said stating the obvious. "Did it make you uncomfortable?"

"It did... Me and guys just do not work! The only time I've ever really been touched by a guy was when I was getting beat! There isn't any flashbacks or anything but it just feels wrong." I fought tears as I tried to explain. "It feels nice, and I did not expect that."

"But isn't that good Vic? It just shows that things are changing; things are looking up for once!"

"Back then I always felt like I didn't deserve the beatings.... but maybe I did. Maybe I don't deserve a happy ending with love and a prince charming."

"No! No, don't say that!" She crossed the room and took me into her arms. "You never deserved the beatings sweetie. You are the nicest, kindest, smartest person I know. You, above everyone else deserve happiness and I will not rest until you have that. Even if that means getting you with Erik."

"But he's his fathers son. Truthfully I don't know if I can deal with that. I don't know if I can continue loving him knowing that one day he could turn out like him." The tears ran freely now, my big blue eyes swimming like an ocean. "Would you?"

"Your right, I wouldn't risk it. And another thing... I don't think you really love him. You haven't known him that long before he turned on you. Yeah, it's true he appeared when you were most vulnerable but still. I think you'll just cling to anyone that's there for you and that's sincere." I nodded now, tangling my red curls against her sturdy shoulder. "Make sense?"

"Yeah." I pulled away and gave her a watery smile. She returned it with a small one of her own and after drying my tears, leaned forward and kissed me on the corner of my mouth.

"Don't worry. You'll get someone perfect for you. Things will get better." She whispered taking my hand and together we walked out of the bathroom. It was nice knowing I had someone I could count on.