shitposting 🪳

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I've come to the conclusion that I don't really care about being in a relationship.

In the past ive struggled a lot with my sexuality because I'm constantly going back and forth between "I love men I want a relationship with one" and "I hate men id rather die than be in a relationship with anyone"

and I feel like part of this is the desire to feel loved but my immense fear of being vulnerable gets in the way.

its easy being vulnerable on here since I can hide behind a fat wall of anonymity.

but not so easy when you have a close relationship with somone.

hence, why I don't have many close close friends. and even my closest friends don't know much about me.

I got off topic.

my point is, is that whenever I get upset that I'm not in a relationship, it's not because I necessarily want one- because being in one scares tf out of me.

It's because I'm faced with the fact that I've never been wanted.

I've never been in a relationship because no man has shown genuine interest in me.

no one has ever liked me, for me.

guy #1 felt like he had to care about me because of my piss poor mental health. thays the only reason he stayed.

guy #2 tried getting with me for my body. thank god I realized it before it was too late.

and now I've learned guy #3 doesn't give a shit about me.

and all of my friends don't care about me either.

the people I care about most? yeah I'm most definitely not in their top 5.

I'm just so sick and tired of not being wanted.

Its like i'm only wanted and worth based on what I can provide for others and it's tiring.

"but artsy_h0e28, you're wrong."

maybe I am. maybe I'm totally wrong. but no one puts in the effort to talk to me. no one thinks of me as one of their favorite people. no one fucking cares about me and I'm starting to think that I might be right about this.

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