shitposting 🪳

yeeeowwwwch

hi guys.

been awhile huh.

life has been very bad tbh

honestly not slay lmao

first off: I hate men.

I hate men because they give tok many mixed signals.

the one guy I've had a crush on since last year recently broke up with his gf and started snapping me more often so I thought something was there but honestly I gave up because he's too confusing

second off: this week (well today/yesterday) I had my huge audition for band to see if I get into the state band and honestly I didn't so as bad as last year but I did not make it in.

that rlly fucked me up lmao I feel like a major disappointment.

mainly because I just feel like a failure. like a lot of people had so much faith in me and I flopped.

I also felt like I needed to prove myself with this audition? idk.

third off: I found out my dog has cancer lmao.

3 fucking days before the big audition. how fantastic.

fourth off: my social anxiety has been a peice of shit lately.

I can't stop overthinking every social interaction I have and it's annoying.

I get to lowkey tears over it. over every. fucking. conversation.

but I had a nice long talk (more like therapy session) with my band teacher about things and he helped me a bunch so I think im gonna try and work through it.

he knows everything about me (unwillingly tbh. but he even knows how I literally wanted to kay em ess in 2020 cuz I accidently let it slip in a band lesson oopsie) so he is rlly helpful it stressy times.

so yeah thats been my life recently. it's been kinda hard but nothing I can't deal with tbh. on the bright side- I joined my schools esports team and started playing overwatch 2 so that's cool.

ok that's all I feel like typing lmao I just needed to rant and let the words out of my mind since it's midnight and I started crying over my audition but I feel better now so thanks for reading this lols