His Cold Wife

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Jungkook's POV

Tiredness and regret. That's what I've been feeling after spending a few hours in this room. Tired because of what just happened and regret for what i've said earlier.

Thinking about it makes me tears up all over again. I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have said all of those. I've crossed the line, i was so childish!

I was hurt but i hurt her back knowing damn well she's not mentally okay. The only thing i can pray for at this time is that she's okay. Because when i stepped out of the room, i was met with silence. She's not home. Emptiness crashes with my overflowing guilt and regret.

Why can't just this relationship work like how it was in the beginning? Why do we have to fight over and over again? Why does life need to have ups and downs when we can just live a fucking happy life?

As I reached the living room, the front door opened revealing Jimin hyung and Tae hyung with a confused yet concerned face.

Jimin: "what on earth happened to you?"

Jungkook: "what are you doing here hyung?" I asked back since i have no more energy to answer his question. I don't wanna break down in front of them.

Taehyung: "to know what's really happening Kook. Everything's a literally mess."

Jungkook: "what do you mean? Can you two not add more for today's event? I'm getting depressed already." I stated as i make my way towards the kitchen.

Taehyung: "that's the thing! There's so much happening that it makes us concerned over everyone and check you here."

Jungkook: "I'm not getting your point hyung." I just continue to get away from them but they follow me in the kitchen. It's starting to annoy me. I'm dealing with enough things now.

Jimin: "Yoongi hyung. We were all with him in his studio because he wants us to listen to the song he composed. You were not there since you're busy."

"But then, he got a call from Auntie. After that, he rushes out the place with his worried look and without even caring about anything."

Jungkook: "then? It must be his bed, finding out it's ruined. Why does that concern me-" My complaining session got stopped when Jimin hyung continued his side.

Jimin: "it's about Y/n having a heart attack." He finished.

The glass in my hand slipped down as it breaks in the floor. I suddenly can't hear anything but Jimin's words.

Heart attack-

The front door opened once again and this time dad came in. I rushed towards him without giving him any time to talk.

Jungkook: "w-what to happened to Y/n?" I asked in a miserable state. Hoping to get a positive answer from him. Tears began to pour down once again as i think of it.

Dad: "Y/n's in the hospital. You can go there to know everything Kookie."

I shake my head as i clench my fist.

Jungkook: "no.. i can't. I don't have any guts to face her. I just can't dad."

They looked at me with pity but i don't want it. Dad heavily sighed and decided to just tell me everything.

Dad: "Y/n almost had a heart attack. When i arrive here earlier, i was met with her rushing to get in her car. I approached her to only find out that she's showing a sign of an upcoming heart attack. I thought it was a heart attack already but it's not."

"But i'm glad i took her quick enough for her cardiologist to prevent the attack from happening. If that somehow happens, that's when the battle of her and life begins."

Every words he had said breaks me into pieces. I caused her that. I almost took her life away from her.. I am so awful. Dad pull me into a hug and starts to comfort me.

Taehyung: "we didn't know she have a heart disease.." He murmured

A/N's POV

Yoongi: "you fucking scared me! what the hell even happened that you end up here!?" He sat up from the couch in the corner of this ward and approached her.

When she woke up, she just found him there sitting with so much nervousness and fear radiating from him with his face burried in his hands. She didn't talk or move to let him know she's awake. Stare into nothing and think about life is all she did not until he found out that she's out of her sleep.

Y/n: "where's mom and dad?" Is all she asked.

Yoongi: "they are with Mr. Ahn, talking about your condition and everything."

She just nodded and stare at the ceiling once again. He sighed heavily and sat down on the chair beside her bed.

"you truly scared me Y/n. that's been the baddest news i have ever received after the last i heard about you having a heart attack. what happened to you?" He looks at her with so much worry in his eyes that she doesn't want him to have.

Y/n: "i told you. love makes me weak. love will only bring pain." She softly stated without looking at him but the ceiling.

Yoongi: "where's Jungkook?" He frowned when he realized that he haven't seen him yet, the fact that she's in a bad condition but he's nowhere to be found.

Y/n: "don't look for someone who's not here and doesn't even want to be here in the first place Yoongs." She now fixed her gaze towards him with so much soft tone than before. She's weak when it comes to her husband and knowing that her brother is worried adds more.

Yoongi's now thinking that something happened really serious between the two of them that makes her lay in this bed. But the questions are, what literally happened and where is Jungkook?

Yoongi: "i'm gonna call him-"

Y/n: "he thought that everything i feel and have for him was fake."

"I care for him, I worry about him, I think a lot of him, I do miss him, I'm concerned about him, I do feel much more safe, comfy, and feel loved around him."

"And I do love him."

"But he thought that all of that was fake. Do i really suck on showing how i feel? Yes i do think i really suck, but i tried my best for him to feel the love i so badly want him to know. Does it really look like all of those are fake, Yoongs? Do i look more fake than his ex-girlfriend who really meant to fake everything but he never finds it fake not until he got to know? Does it and Do I, Yoongs?"

She looks at him after that with the saddest eyes he has ever seen on her. Her chest rises up and down as she tries not to cry in front of him.

Yoongi felt his chest tighten after hearing and looking at her. He feels the pain that her sister is going through and he can't look at her in this state.

He can't think of any answer or words for her question. Speechless is what he is now. When she finds Yoongi quiet, she continues to let out.

"I am not good at everything but being silent. Never did i care, think and be concerned of someone in my life other than y'all. Never in my life did i love someone other than my family. Never in my life did i promise in myself that i would do anything and sacrifice everything for someone other than my family."

"Never did i love someone this deep in my life not until him. So it hurts. It hurts like hell, Yoongi." Her lips tremble as her tears betray her and begin to pour down from her starting to get red eyes.
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While he stands there, feeling more broken and guilty after overhearing everything.

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i hope you enjoy the chapter and that you're still okay after reading it..
Thank you for waiting for this chap:) I'll be back when my important school works are done!