Never Him. Always Him.

10

"good morning everyone. I ask that you separate your tables. You have your exams today" getting up, I moved my table to the far corner and sat down away from Everyone. 'i don't even want to do these stupid exams' "girl you alright?" "No. Everything is fucked" mon nodded "yeah I know. Fuck I wish I could help. You wouldn't believe it. I have my engagement on the twenty seventh" "what?" "Yeah.. to patrick" I put my head down "I'm sorry" "me too" 'even Monica. This is fucked up. I feel just as sorry for her as I do myself. My sister I couldn't give a fuck about' looking at the papers as the teacher placed them in front of me, my eyes watered. 'all of this for nothing' "alright everyone. When this will go on all week. Get ready. When the buzzer stops, you must too" filling out answer after answer, I don't even know if I got them right but I don't care. Why work so hard when I can't even do it for the right reasons' hearing the buzzer then the bell, I grabbed my papers and slammed them on the teacher's desk then left the class room. "Girl wait up" "hi Monica" I turned my eyes "Patrick" "I would love to join you" "we don't socialise" "then I think it would be good. I'd like to get to know your friends" walking away, I sighed as Matthew approached. "I hope you are doing well with your exams jadee. I know you are very intelligent" when my phone rang, I walked away and grabbed it out. 'austin'. "Hey" "you sound shit" "it's all shit. Monica is getting married off too" "What?" "Yeah.." "Jake" "don't look at me like that. What's going on?" "It's Monica" "whats going on?" "Just like jadee" "WHAT?" "that's what jadee said" "this is fucked up. Absolute bullshit" "tell him I agree".
"Jadee I know what you wrote was out of anger. I have.." "Matthew I don't care okay. Why can't you find someone you actually know and like" "I have" "then marry her" "I am" "you know nothing about me" "you are intelligent.." "jadee just walk away" "I have for the last two days. Got exams.." "I was speaking with you" "I was on the phone. You interrupted. Look whether you think you know me or not, you don't.." "I do. You are smart, beautiful, like to read.." "read?. I don't read. Excuse me".
"Read?" "Argh they fed him some bullshit Im sure" "you don't read. I can already see that. Listen to music, enjoy sport, the outdoors.." "all correct. This is fucked up. I have my exams and can't even concentrate" "us too. It's a shit show" "you better be excelling" "GIRL WAIT UP" I looked at Monica as she rushed my way. "where.. on the phone to Austin?" "Yeah.. he told Jake" "put it on video" "alright" putting it on video, I could tell just by austins eyes, he's upset. "Jake. Monica is on the screen" when Jake appeared he had a look of anger. "both of you?" Monica nodded "yeah.. I was told last night. Engagement then two months later marriage and I have to live with him" "is it the same for you?" "Haven't asked and I don't care. None of us want this" "nor us. Will we see you?" "As much as we can" "i agree with Monica. We are expected to spend time with them but we refuse" "not as hunky huh?" I grinned like Monica "never".

Matthew.

'im trying to get her with me but no matter what I say, she turns me away. Mom and dad assured me she would come around. It's just shock but there's nothing from her. Patrick, jack and I have liked these girls for years' "what do we do?" "I don't know. She said she doesn't even like reading" "monica said the same. All I want to do is make her happy" "yeah.. we have our engagement next week and I have no idea what to do".

Jadee.

Arriving at home, I walked straight to my room. Seeing my mother going through my drawers, I grabbed my stapler and threw it at her head. "SHIT" "GET OUT OF MY ROOM YOU FUCKING HOE" my mother held her head as she looked at me "I AM.." "WANT THE FUCKING CHAIR TO?" "IM YOUR MOTHER.." "YOU ARE NOTHING TO ME. GOOD LUCK FINDING ANYTHING. I WOULDNT KEEP ANYTHING IN HERE FOR YOU TO FIND. YOU THINK I DONT KNOW YOU HAVE BEEN IN HERE. FUCK OFF BEFORE THIS CHAIR GOES OVER YOUR HEAD..." "JADEE ENOUGH" "OH DONT START ON ME. THIS SLUT CAN GET OUT" "JADEE" "I WILL LEAVE THEN" "ABELLA GET OUT. JADEE THIS IS ENOUGH. MATTHEW WILL.." "I DONT CARE" "THEN START" punching my mother in the head, she dropped "JADEE" "GET THAT HOE AWAY FROM ME. KEEP HIM AWAY FROM ME TOO" "HES YOUR FIANCE" "WHAT DUMBASS TOLD HIM I LIKE TO READ. I DONT FUCKING LIKE TO READ. WHATS NEXT? I LOVE BEAUTY SALONS. I HAVE NO FUCKING INTEREST IN THAT BORING ASS IDIOT" when dad punched me, he immediately stepped back as I looked at him with murder in my eyes. "GET OUT. RIGHT FUCKING NOW. TAKE THAT HOE WITH YOU AND NEVER COME NEAR ME AGAIN YOU STUPID BITCH. I WILL BREAK YOUR FUCKING LEGS" mom rushed out as dad had watery eyes "jadee it's not that bad. He's a good.." "OUT" sitting down on my bed, I kept my eyes away from my father. "Jadee, Matthew and his parents will be here shortly. I ask that you join us" "for what?" "To sort details of the engagement" "I don't care about it. He can have his fancy fucking engagement. What I want is to be free" dad walked out and closed the door leaving me on my own.
'i don't want any of this. I am happy with being who I am'. Sitting in my room for an hour, my door opened.
"Jadee, Matthew, Kent and Dahlia are here" reluctantly I stood up and followed dad out to the dining room and sat down.
"How are you jadee?" "Fine".

Peter.

'this will not go well. Jadee was reluctant to come out. Has been firing left, right and centre' "your engagement is next week. We are wanting it perfect for both of you" jadee stayed silent as Dahlia looked at me "jadee is there anything you want?" "No" "don't want to invite anyone?" "No" "what about your friends?. Matthew told me you socialise with Monica, Ari and Bosco" "no" I took a deep breath "jadee it may make the night a lot better for you. I understand you may be in shock" "I'm not in shock" "are you sure there is nothing you want?" "Positive" "okay well what about colours?" "Grey" I swallowed hard "grey is not vibrant" "my daughter likes purple" "you are right Britney loves it" "not Britney" "well I surely don't. I don't like to read, don't like salons, flowers, romance, pink, purple, floral.." "jadee" "what? I don't" Dahlia looked my way then back to jadee "surely something can make you happy" "yeah for this to not go ahead" "JADEE" "it will be great for both of you" "I have already told him how it is. No touching, dancing, romance, sexual crap.." "jadee enough. It may.." "oh shut up Abella. I have no respect for you. You can put on any act you want but I know exactly what you are like" "I'm sorry.." "my daughter is out of sorts. It's been a hard day with exams" "no" turning my eyes, I didn't know what to say. "as parents we have agreed for you two to be together" "its a piece of paper. He will never.." "ENOUGH JADEE. YOU ARE BEING.." "theres the real Abella. Full of yelling and crap" I shook my head 'she set her mother up' abella stormed out of the room and I sat down "as I have explained. Its good for both of you" "no" "jadee be reasonable" "I am. You have taken my career and now my chance at love" "Matthew.." "never" "jadee just listen" "I already told you how it will be and it won't change. You want grandkids ask the princess. This is not for me" I inhaled a deep breath. "choose what you would like. Jadee will be there" jadee got up and walked away. "YOU LITTLE BITCH.." "FUCK YOU. YOU ARE A HOE. YOU DONT THINK I HAVENT SEEN YOU WITH GREGORY. YOU ARE A PIG" I swallowed hard 'this is an absolute disaster' "Gregory?" "Jadee is just angry at the world right now". 'gregory Morphin?. What had my daughter seen. She hasn't mentioned this to me'.

Jadee.

'fuck that slut, Britney and that asshole. All I want is to get the hell out of here and live my life in peace with my friends. Even Monica is going through this shit. I know she likes jake'.