Never Him. Always Him.

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Peter.

'there she is' walking jadees way, I then sat down. "jadee" jadee looked straight at me but showed nothing on her face. 'i have hated this' "what can I do for you?" "It's been nearly a year jadee. You are my daughter and as much as you don't like my decisions, I still love you and want to have a relationship. I don't like this silence" "the silence is necessary to keep the peace" "to keep the peace?. Your wedding anniversary is next week. In one year, you have pushed away your family and close friend. You didn't even go to her wedding. You stay in a hotel every weekend never spending time with your husband. The only thing you have done right, is your job" jadee sat back "I have done what's right by me. I told you, I didn't want the marriage but you didn't listen. I am doing what's right by me, well besides the job. It's your choice if you don't like what I do but I'm living my life the best way I can with the position you have put me in. As for Monica, shes not a friend. She has completely changed and just like you, expects me to do the same. That won't happen" I inhaled a deep breath as jadee continued. "Even Bosco and Ari don't like the person she is. It was her choice. Now i have made it clear that I have no intentions on being buddies with her. I won't be changing my sleeping arrangements nor my life out of that house. It was him that wanted this marriage. If hes not happy then he has the rights to divorce me" "he loves you jadee.." "no. He doesn't even know me..." "Because you won't spend time with him" "I speak to him but I told you, I will not have any contact with him. There will be touching and all that jazz. Great, he's a good person and intelligent. Not my type. Now.." "it's you that needs to change" "I have said this many times now, I am not changing. The years will just drag on and nothing is going to happen. Stop forcing this on me. Forcing this relationship, friendships and so called family time. As you said, it's been nearly a year and nothing has changed. It won't. I have work to do" "I have spoken with Maxwell, you can stay" "I have a job to do" I inhaled deeply as jadee stood up. "Jadee all I have wanted is what is best for you" when jadee walked away I put my head down. 'she is only hurting Matthew more. He wants nothing more than to start a family and treat her right. He has had Monica and Patrick over some evenings but jadee doesn't speak to her. She speaks to Matthew but there's no romance there. Jadee is still sleeping in the spare room and has no interest in moving her things. I haven't heard from or seen britney since she ran. Jadee keeps in contact with her but won't tell me where she is, what she is doing. I don't even know who her partner is. I know she ran to someone but it hasn't come out. She changed her number and now I can't even call her. It hurts that my daughters are this way'.

Jadee.

"Jadee i didn't expect you back so soon" "something to hide Maxwell" Maxwell chuckled "not at all. Saves me having to do your work" "remember how to do it?" "Nuh. All yours. Your father said he wanted to speak with you" "too bad. I have a job to do. That's what he originally wanted" Maxwell showed a cheeky grin "he wanted a lot of things" "yeah.. what a shame. Didn't we all" "that course?" "Yeah its been good. Only three months to go" "that's it?" I grinned "yep then I can start working in that field on Saturdays" "you will be exhausted. When's party time?" "Whenever I pick up a beer" Maxwell laughed as I put the headset on "I like your thinking. Long days?" "I'm unsure. If it's Saturday it will most likely be from eight until two" "that's not too bad. You still have time to do whatever it is that you do" "I agree".

Matthew.

"Hi Matthew" "hi Patrick. Hi Monica. How are you both?" "We are well" "very well. Thank you" "glad to hear that. Has your week been okay?" "Busy working but yes everything is going well" "we actually have some news" "what news?" "We are expecting" I grinned "that's wonderful news. Im really happy for you both. How far along are you?" "Fourteen weeks. Our parents are ecstatic too" I grinned "please, take a seat I will get some food" "oh that's not necessary.." "she needs to eat" I grinned until I walked into the kitchen.
'i want kids. I know jadee wanted two but I haven't even been able to share a kiss with her. It's nearly a year that we have been married and nothing has changed. We speak but there's nothing from her side. No light in her green eyes when she looks at me. I so badly just want to sleep beside her, hold her and make love to her. I'm thrilled for both Monica and Patrick.
Hearing the front door, I walked out. "hi jadee" "hi Matthew" "did you have a good day?" "Like always, Maxwell is great. You?" "I did".

Jadee.

"Hi jadee" I looked at Patrick "Patrick. Well?" "Very" "we are expecting. Fourteen weeks" "congrats" Monica grinned "you wanted two. Maybe they can play together" "that's not on the cards" hearing my phone, I grabbed it out. "Hello?" "Hey hey mother fucker" I chuckled "what's going on?" "Nothing. Bored shitless. Finished your la-di-da job?" "Yep. Sure have" "so free for a beer?" "Always. Need to get changed" when Monica walked my way, i smirked as Ari spoke "the local" "yep I'm set". "I was speaking to you" "argh that slag is there" I chuckled "yep" "quick" "see ya soon ya ass" "yeah ya will. Catch" "catch".
Walking off, Monica followed "that was rude" "how many times do I have to say we aren't friends, Monica?. You cant blame the baby brain for you being stupid" "this hate.." I glared at Monica "get out of my face Monica. Wow you got knocked up. Fantastic. No I won't be having kids or supporting you in anyway just like I didn't come to your wedding. This person you are now is ridiculous. Good for you, you are happy. I'm happy for you. Now I am going to see a friend and enjoy my night" entering my room, I closed the door and locked it before getting changed. 'time to go catch up with ari' grabbing what I need, I walked out and locked my door. Seeing Monica in the hallway with her head down, I walked straight past her and out the front door.

"Here she is" "well shit. Both of you" "yeah you are stuck with us. Have fun?" "Argh. Stupid bitch. She's pregnant" both guys laughed "they are going to be some ugly ass babies" I chuckled "she was saying I wanted two and maybe they can play together" "what the fuck?" "Told her they aren't on the cards. It's ridiculous. How has your week been?" "Same shit. Met a chick" I grinned "willing to put up with your ass Bosco?" "My ass is fine" "that's what you think".

Matthew.

'i need to find out where she has gone' following jadee to the pub, i took a deep breath. 'she always drinks a lot but who with?' entering the pub, I looked around. 'ari and bosco. Monica used to be good friends with all three but they turned their backs' "Oh piss off jadee. You will love her" "If she is putting up with you, she will be good value. Things going well with yours?" Ari looked my way "your husband is here" when jadee turned, she spoke "want a beer Matthew?" "No thank you. This is where you come to drink?" "Not normally. It's closer for the three of us to meet up here" "yes they are" jadee grinned as she turned to face Ari. "Been how long now?" "Shit. Ten months officially" "oh look at this guy all grown" "fuck up jadee" 'sounds like both of these guys are partnered' sitting down, Bosco Spoke. "I thought you had friends over" "I do. I wanted to see where jadee goes" "trying to keep tabs?" "She's hardly home" "well as jadee said, we don't normally come here. Mostly speak on the phone but it's about time we catch up" "agreed it's been way too long" "you three used to be good friends with Monica too" "yeah well we can't work out which Monica is the real Monica. Good for her but that's not our life. She is obviously happy and good for her. Things change".