Love is a pain, but past that it's a blessing

#10-TO-GET-HER

Hi readers! Hope you are enjoying Jennie and Pang's story. Here is the next chapter,  the next step in their relation.

Jennie's apartment :-

Pang: when did you start liking me?
Jennie: mmm.... From your first day in the university. I tried to find you a lot but I never did. For me you are like a Cinderella, who left her name in the music club and disappeared.
Pang: why didn't you tell me from the start?
Jennie: what should I tell you? That I like you. That I fell in love with you at the first sight. Do you know how much I tried to find you? Get close to you and take care of you.
Pang: still you didn't have to treat me a stranger from the beginning. You got the chance to get close to me because of the grouping.
Jennie: Yeah, but I got the chance because I begged all the members in the club to put you in my group. I made my chance. I tried everything within my power and I didn't what to blow it up by telling you about knowing you, by telling you my feelings.
Pang: so you broke the rules?
Jennie: that was my perfect chance to get close to you and I took it.
Pang: fine, I forgive you.
Jennie: sooo.... You are okay? I mean with the kiss, no! I mean with me!, no! I mean will you be my girlfriend? Ahh! This wasn't how I thought I would get to ask you.
Pang: it's fine. But you don't know what kind of person I am.
Jennie: I spent all the days with you, for almost 2 weeks. I think I know enough.
Pang: no! We spent the day together, not the nights. I do one night stands. I don't like to attach any strings with anyone. I was never and will never be in a serious relationship. I just sleep around for fun.
Jennie: it might be true, but I think you've changed.
I could see that change from the past few days and I think I can change you more.
Pang: I don't know if I've changed. I don't know what I'm feeling is because I like you or I'm just attracted to you. I'm sorry.

Without giving any chance for Jennie to speak, Pang takes her guitar and rushes out. Jennie didn't know what to do so she just stayed inside.

Jennie: did I think ahead of myself? I shouldn't have kissed her. I thought I could change you. I knew you liked to sleep around. All my friends told me about it but I thought I can change you. Ahhhh!!!! Jennie!!!!
I'm so mad at me right now. What should I do???

Same day at night, in a bar :-

Pang didn't know what to do or what she felt towards Jennie. With a confused feeling, she goes to the bar to drink it off.

It's been 4 hours since Pang started to drink and it's past midnight.

A girl in the bar: hey cutie! Are you alone? Want to do something fun?
Pang is drunk but she knows what was happening. Both of them go back of the bar. The girl starts to kiss her and Pang remembers her kiss with Jennie. The more longer the kiss, the more guilt she feels. Pang slowly pushes the girl away and apologises for doing it and leaves from there.

Pang gets in her car and starts to drive to her dorm.
Pang to herself: what happened to you? Pang this isn't new to you. Yeah! I've been doing this for past 2 years. It's not your first time or not your fault. This is what you want. Ahhhhh!!!!! Why did I think of Jennie while kissing her. Why did I feel guilty? Do I really like her?

Pang remembers the lines Jennie told when they were in the park. She remembers Jennie's sad face, the expression she can never bare to look on Jennie.

Pang: what are you doing now? are you making that face right now? Am I the one causing you to make that face? I guess I fell deeper at that moment in the park.

Thinking all these moments, without knowing she drives herself to Jennie's apartment. When Pang realises what she is doing, she has already got to Jennie's apartment door.

In the apartment :-

Jennie hasn't eaten since morning. All she did was look at Pang's pictures in her phone. Finally she fell asleep on the couch from exhausting herself from crying.

Pang slowly knocks the door but no one answers it. She knew the password to the door but hesitates for a second, thinking about her feelings. She opens the door and finds Jennie sleeping on the couch. She slowly takes the phone from her hands. Jennie wakes up getting startled.

Jennie: what happened? Why are you here?
Pang: I....
Jennie: did you drink?
Pang: I'm fine. I need to tell you something.
Jennie: not right now. Go take a warm shower.
Pang: you still worry about me even though I hurt you.
Jennie: you did nothing wrong, we can't force it if we don't like it.
Pang: you are right. That's why I couldn't do it with that girl, because I wanted to do it with you. It had to be you.
Jennie: what girl? what had to be me?
Pang: I think you succeed in starting a change in me. I can't do one night stands anymore and it's because of you. I guess I did fall for you without knowing, but I'm not sure. I might get bored of you or I might not like you anymore in future, but I want to try.
Jennie: nothing is forever with us. I'll try to make you fall in love with me every day then. Will you be my girlfriend?
Pang: yes.

Jennie might not be okay with Pang's past but she can't do anything to change it now, she can only use her time in the present to make up for past. Pang might not love Jennie to the core but it's just a start to fall in love head over heals.

Author :- love is really weird. No one knows when we will feel it. It might take years or months or weeks or days or even seconds. And when we feel that we should try to accept it. We need to try so that we won't have any regrets.

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Signing off -Alice👋🏻