"Hyunjin, understand where he is coming from."
"I understand, I do, I just... We have loved each other for years and I don't want to waste more time..." Hyunjin told his sister.
"I'm sure he doesn't want to waste time either, but he has his job to consider. If he dates you there is a possibility of him not being able to treat you anymore." Karina said.
Hyunjin pouted. It was becoming to difficult.
He loved Felix, he wanted to be with Felix, but it seemed that something always was in between.
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"So if I were to, there would be no repercussions?"
"Felix, you are an amazing doctor who wouldn't let his emotions get in the way. There are very few instances in which I figure your emotions would play a role. Plus, most of us have been waiting for you to date him for years." Yoongi stated.
"Yeah, so I've been hearing." Felix chuckled.
"I'm not going to lie, when I brought you in as my resident I wasn't sure you'd do well because of how young you were, but I wanted to give you that chance.
When you first met Hyunjin there was connection there that no one else understood and look it might've been because you guys are around the same age, but it… it made everything alot less difficult.
I knew by the third month of you being on his care that emotions had become involved, by that point I had considered taking you off his care. I didn't because I knew it wouldn't be right."
Felix felt a little confused.
"I don't quite understand." Felix said.
Yoongi smiled softly.
"I was friends with Hyunjin's parents when we were in highschool, Hyunjin was my first ever patient, he was year old I knew his family history wasn't good, but his heart was really bad. Never able to keep a steady flow, among other things.
He wasn't fond of me. What I am trying and failing at saying, is that he loves you and you love him, and if you guys begin a relationship I won't take you off his care or questions your judgement unless absolutely necessary."
Felix gave a tight lip smile.
Yoongi smiled and nodded.
"Go talk to him."
"I can't exactly..."
Yoongi nodded and stood up.
"I'll take you to him." Yoongi stated.
"You don't have to, I can call Jisung." Felix said.
"Don't tell anyone I said this, but besides Hobi, Sunoo, and Yuna; you and Hyunjin are two of my favourite people."
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"Okay, I'll leave you two to figure your stuff out." Yoongi said, leaving Hyunjin's hospital room.
"What did doctor Min mean?" Hyunjin questioned.
"Uhm, I talked to Doctor Min." Felix said.
"About?"
"About us..."
Hyunjin tilted his head confused.
"I wanted to know if there would be any repercussions of us. He told me there wouldn't be any meaning that I would stay on your care and my judgement would only be questioned on certain things." Felix told him.
"So... You want it to happen?" Hyunjin asked.
"I want it to happen and about half the hospital staff want it to happen."
Hyunjin laughed softly.
"The hospital staff?"
"Yeah... Apparently Yoongi has known about our feelings for each other since about three months after we met."
Hyunjin nodded.
"There is a "but" isn't there?" Hyunjin questioned.
Felix nodded.
"What is it this time? Because I mean first there was Madi, then you transferring, what more could be thrown at us to make it to were we can't finally have a happy ending.?"
"It's me, Hyunjin. I'm the issue. I can't do relationships. I cannot commit to a romantic relationship because I build walls and that creates issues." Felix stated.
Hyunjin wasn't expecting that.
"The Felix from whatever that dream was is still me, but it is part of me that'll never come out and you deserve someone who can give you all of them."
There Felix was, it didn't matter that he wanted so bad to be with Hyunjin, from his perspective it just wouldn't work.
Hyunjin nodded, his lips pressing into a thin line.
"I love you Felix and I want to be with you. I want to hold your hand. I want to kiss you. I want to wake up next to you every morning and go to sleep holding you every night. I want to make you breakfast in bed or lunch in bed depending on your shift for that day.
I want to listen to you talk about your days, so if it a hard day I can draw you a bath with bubble and bath bomb, so you can relax for a little. While your taking that much needed bath, I'd pull out one of my hoodies and throw it in the dryer with a towel and bottoms so that when you get out it is warm." Hyunjin said.
Felix was about to speak but Hyunjin began to speak again.
"After all that I want to bring you your favourite snacks, so we we can sit in bed watching some show. Felix, I want to marry you and have kids or not have kids. I'll wait, because I have waited for years."
"Hyunjin, I don't want you to wait.!"
That hurt a lot.
