Save me Mick

Part 20

TW:
Slight mentions of being deep in anorexia, not eating, and purging/throwing up food Surprisingly not any other TWs I can think of but please let me know if there is one <3

Danni POV

The stares of my coworkers burned into my face as I sat in the court room. Drea sat next to me with her hand on my leg as I bounced it. Although technically we weren't supposed to be sitting together given I was supposed to be sitting with my lawyer, the judge allowed it probably upon seeing the state I was in. Everything anyone said went in one ear and out the other as I sat there fidgeting with the rings on Drea's hands although mine were shaking.

"It's okay. Ignore them okay?" The woman next to me whispered into my ear and I nodded, grateful for the attempted comfort. The court session was a blur of anxiety until the jury called out his sentence....15 years and 100 hours of community service. I was numb. Several sets of hands helped me out of the court room and to a seating area where I broke down. Finally glancing up I saw that most of the pairs of hands belonged to coworkers that I wasn't exactly close with but didn't mind. Drea stood next to me trying to comfort me as the rest stared. After I calmed down and collected myself as best I could Drea kept glancing at her phone. "Go it's okay, I'm sure they all have questions" I said gesturing towards the 4 in front of me. She nodded giving me a quick hug before leaving. "Go ahead, ask" I spoke and one young detective who I think's name is Grace spoke up. "When did you er why did you uh" she rambled a bit clearly nervous she'd upset me. "It's okay dude. You wanna know when and why I got my tube?" I asked for confirmation.

   She nodded "I'm Grace" she introduced and I smiled a little bit to reassure her she hadn't upset me and took a breath. "Well I got sick a few years back. Wasn't eating. A few good friends found out and convinced me to recover. I realized I needed a tube for the time being given how deep I'd gotten into my anorexia" I finished and Grace nodded "I noticed. I'm sorry I never said anything Danni." "You did?" I was surprised "we all did" another one spoke up. "I remember one time we were talking by the coffee machine and when Drea called you away you stumbled. Your face was kind of pale but when I tried to help you shrugged me off saying you were okay and just getting over a cold" one recited one of my bad excuses. "One time I overheard gagging in the bathroom and then you came out. Said you were low on sick days and couldn't take off but were sick." Another one recited a memory.

"We're all really sorry we never said anything" one that I thought I remembered being named Brianna spoke. Diego, her boyfriend I think sat next to her nodding in silent agreement. "It's okay guys seriously I'm okay now or trying to be" I reassured them before telling them I had to leave and walking out to meet Lourdes and Michaela. The court was a mostly closed session given the heavy nature, only NYPD allowed in. Michaela wasn't able to make it and Lourdes isn't NYPD. Driving to the coffee shop I sighed. How have I come this far?

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DO NOT ask me what the hell this is, I don't know. Here's this. Probably gonna wrap the book up by 25 at the latest and probably earlier than that. Opinions? Suggestions?

-Brooklyn