Part Nineteen

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Chan pov
"chan..."
"no, jeongin...why? Just why did he have to kill that man?" I said shaking my head.
"he disrespected felix....his king he deserved it"he said clenching his jaw.
"that is not worth of a life jeongin....it is not like he said something wrong your mate is sick....and apparently all of you are....i thought you could change...i..."
He growled cutting me off before he pinned me to the wall his eyes shining red"don't you ever speak about him like that again"he said squeezing my hands hard making me groan in pain, did I make the wrong decision of putting my trust in them? I had hope that they will change but what hyunjin did....and what jeongin is doing now is making me question my trust.

Suddenly the boy's eyes turned into their natural color before he took a step back with a shocked expression.
"chan, I am sorry"his grip loosened a bit I looked at my bruised wrist from his stronghold.
"omg" he gently took my hand into his examining them."I swear I didn't mean to hurt you...i just...."he said taking a deep breath trying to hold his tears back....is he going to cry?or Is he just a good actor? Is he trying to manipulate me?
"it is okay...i am fine"I reassured him, he crunched down shaking his head.
"I hurt you....i am sorry....i am so sorry...you are right...we are not capable of changing...I can't even control my anger..." he started shaking before he finally broke down into cries.

I bite my lips looking at the boy, my heart broke seeing his state.i ran toward him pulling him into a hug"it is okay...i promise...."
"no, let go" he pushed gently before he disappeared.

I walked toward the bed sitting down.
"chan" I looked up to see hyunjin standing in the middle of the room" you were not supposed to see that" he added making me chuckle.
"oh, pardon me...clearly I was not supposed to see.how cruel you are...how much of a monster you will always be" I yelled...i don't know why I am overreacting like this but a part of me is scared that I put my trust in the wrong people...i fucking confessed to jeongin...i have always been afraid of putting my heart in the wrong hands...
"if you have forgotten I kidnapped you...i told you from the start that I am like this...changing me won't happen...i have been like this my whole life" he said calmly.

"yeah, clearly I am not capable of changing you" I murmured.
"I have never promised you anything of such....you are the one who talked about that each one of us has a good side...quick news I do not" he yelled breaking his calm facade..
I looked down in shame, was I expecting too much? I just started... He is right though...he can't change within a day or two, shit....
"I went over all my principles....i told you I care about you and the others....i am trying to protect you with all I could...but if you can't accept me like this so be it" he said making me look up.

"hyunjin..."
"this who I am bangchan" he said making me freeze he is right...i messed up....i was trying to protect my feelings so I rushed things up...i should have stayed calm...i should have given them time.
He was glaring at me with red eyes, his face held an angry look that send shivers down my spine.i carefully took some steps toward him before I pulled him into a hug.
I could feel him tense into my hold"I am sorry"I murmured.
He stayed like a statue not moving an inch"I have faith in you...i am sorry that I did that...I was afraid that..." I paused
"that what" he said not touching me.

"I will get hurt....i was afraid that you will hurt my feelings...i thought maybe you are just acting like you care about us....because of you do I will be devastated..."I whispered hugging him tighter.
"why? What I am to you...clearly you don't see me as an important person...you changed your mind after..."
"because I love you"I cut him off, my heart start beating too fast" it is wrong...i fell in love with you too fast...seeing kill that man made me afraid that you won't change or that you are deceiving me into falling for you and just getting rid of me..."I said chuckling why do I feel this attracted to them?

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