Hey guys. So as I was writing chapter 12, this thought suddenly crossed my mind- what if I write about Vegas's thoughts about what has happened till now? What kind of thoughts did he have when Pete came back to him? What kind of thoughts did Vegas have when Pete got kidnapped? How did he feel when he got to know that he will become a father? How did he feel when he saw his son for the first time? This is a part of this story and i really wanted to write this so please look forward to it. This whole chapter is about this. I will also be mentioning the headings for easier understanding. I will use italics to represent the thoughts.
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(Vegas's thoughts when Pete came back to him)
Vegas's thoughts were playing with him right now. They were in his mind, messing with him.
"Oh no, poor Vegas. Nobody loves you. Even Pete came back because he felt pity for you, not love. Why would he ever come back if he didn't pity you? Huh, this serves you right for the many horrible things you have done to people from the past. You'll never learn."
Vegas wanted these thoughts to come to a stop but he couldn't control them. Had Pete really come back because he felt pity? No, Pete would never do that, would he? When Pete confessed to him that he loved him, Vegas couldn't really believe what he was hearing. He felt loved for the first time after so many years. But yet again, his thoughts started messing with him.
"Nobody can ever love you. You're a monster. You've always been one. How can someone love a monster like you?"
Maybe his thoughts were right. He was nothing but a monster after all. But for now, he needed to suppress his thoughts since Pete was there with him.
(Vegas's thoughts when Pete got kidnapped and rescued later)
Pete had been kidnapped and Vegas felt worse. He could do nothing about it. This time, he didn't stop his thoughts.
"It serves you right for the things you've done. Poor you, cannot live without Pete can you?"
Vegas was looking for any clue possible that would lead him to his lover. He had no option but to ask help from the main family. When Pete was finally rescued and was safe, they drove back home. Amongst all the negative thoughts that he had, there were a few positive ones.
"Finally!! Pete is safe. I love him so much and if something happened to him I wouldn't be able to survive. I'm so glad that Pete is alright."
(Vegas's thoughts when Pete became pregnant)
When Vegas got to know that Pete was pregnant, he had mixed feelings growing inside him. A lot of thoughts were running on his mind when he heard this news.
"Am I really ready to be a father? Am I ready to become a parent? Will I be able to take care of Pete and the child inside him? What if I end up like my father, who did not love his children at all? I don't want to become like my father, never. I want to give all the love to my family. But what if after the child is born, I become like my father? What if I disappoint Pete and the others once again?"
Vegas pushed these thoughts aside and focused on Pete who was sitting in front of him right now. He would try to be a good parent.
(Vegas's thoughts when his child was born)
Vegas could see that his son had come into this world. He was so small and tiny. Vegas could see his tiny hands and feet that felt so soft when touched. When the doctor asked if he would like to cut the umbilical cord, he had his usual thoughts yet again.
"My son is here. The doctor is asking me to cut the umbilical cord? I've been a cruel person all my life and now I'm witnessing the birth of my own son? Am I really ready to become a parent and a father? Am I ready for this journey?"
Regardless of this thoughts, Vegas proceeded to cut the umbilical cord. He felt happy when he held his son. Although he wasn't ready for this, he would try to become a good father. He would try to become a good husband and good parent. He would look after and love his son very much. He hadn't received love from his father in his childhood. But that would not the same case with his son. His son would grow up in a very loving household with loving parents and a loving brother. His son would have a childhood that Vegas never had. He made a vow to ensure that his son's childhood will be the best.
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Hello guys!! I decided to write this chapter because I thought about what Vegas would have felt at all these times. What were his thoughts during these moments on his life? I wanted Vegas to introspect about what he really felt and thought. I hope you all enjoy this chapter. Love y'all ❤️💜💙
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Fanfiction*DISCLAIMER* The story is not in any way related to the novel or series. It's purely based on what I want to write. Know that scene in episode 13 where Vegas wants Pete to stay and asks him not to leave? What if Pete agreed to it? What would be the...
