teen thoughts.

things i wish i could tell you.

There are moments I wish I could share

Words I wish I could get out

Things I wish I could tell you

I always think I can

But then I know I can't

I wish I could call you

But then I remember

You aren't even here

It's like you aren't even real anymore

I wish you wouldn't have to disappear

I miss the times we would talk all night

All the times we forgot about time

The times where we would laugh

We wouldn't stop until our stomachs hurt

We would laugh so hard we couldn't breathe

I beg for the reminder of your voice

I crave to feel your presence once more

I am not sure how I live without you

But now it appears I have no other choice

When I talked you listened

You would take the time to understand

You listened to my wandering thoughts

Those thoughts inside my twisted mind

You understood everything

You knew all my feelings

A simple look in my eyes and you knew every thought inside my brain

I miss being able to tell you about my day

I would tell you the most pointless things I didn't even have to say

I wanted to tell you everything

I guess it was a sign of comfort when I needed it most

There are things that I wish I could tell you

The things I have said once before

You had all of me

My heart, my mind, my love

Everything you didn't really deserve

I wish I didn't love you

Love a strong word

A concept a feeling a noun too hard to even describe

I didn't fully understand it at first

That was until I met you

You taught me love

You taught me to not just give it to anyone

You flipped my life upside down

You created a storm that blew me away

You made my head a jumbled mess of knotted thoughts

Yet I still loved you

I still stayed

and while I was so in love

you were already gone you weren't around

I was hurting

Sometimes felt as if I was dying

And I don't think these feelings were mutual

Because while I felt pain you seemed unphased

You seemed better than just fine

There are things I wish I could tell you.