Guardian Of The Necklaces

GOTN Chap 38 - Misunderstood Feelings (Jason and Jake's POVs)

Jason's POV:
I followed Jake who stormed out of the cafeteria. "Jake wait up!" I yelled. He stopped. "You okay bud?" I asked as I hugged him. We're not dating. The group just thinks we are. Jake is more of a brother to me. Younger brother. I'm a few months older than him.

I really care for him. I'm his first friend. The first friend he ever cried to. His personal diary. All his secrets are safe with me. All my secrets are safe with him. I told him my biggest one yet.

I have an Aizimea necklace. Yep. A pretty big secret. I'm no royal though. One hundred percent not a royal. If you do not know what an Aizimea necklace is, it's a necklace that only royals get. Well, specifically, only the royals. Not the other fake ones.

What I mean by fake is that, like the kings and queens of other kingdoms. Aizishia and Kaizishia are the only kingdoms with the Aizimea necklace. The other royals have a yellowish brown ones.

They mistake it for the Aizimea necklace. They're called the Aiziea necklaces. They're yellowish brown colored and they have similar powers to the Aizimea necklace. But I don't have that necklace either. I have the actual legit Aizimea necklace.

The reason is, that there is two ways a person could get an Aizimea necklace. One, of course the person has royal blood. And two is the rule only a few people know. Specifically, Jake's grandfather from his papa's side, my parents, Jake, and Mr. Kerolen. Oh and I forgot to mention, my brother and Sir Siel. I got used to calling him that since I kinda stayed in Asfian for a while.

Asfian calls him "Sir Siel" Aizishians call him "Guardian Siel" since before Vrieya figured out she's the guardian of the necklaces, Sir Siel never really showed himself. Before that only Mr. Kerolen, Jake's grandfather, King Leoren, my parents and I, were the only ones who knew Sir Siel.

Okay, now I'll explain why my parents and I somehow are in this situation only royals should really experience. The Celence Forest is a mysterious forest. Sir Siel once told me that it is a forest full of portals. Like legit full of portals.

Yet he's the only one who sees them. That's how my parents met. My mom, she stumbled upon Aizishia. She's from Asfian. My dad being the kind Aizishian he is, he kept her a secret.

But it didn't take long before Sir Siel to figure it out. But then again, Sir Siel isn't all that harsh. He may seem harsh, but in reality he's one of the kindest people I know. He allowed my parents to love each other and travel to Asfian.

My dad never knew who his parents were but he still loved Aizishia. My mom is called a mix. She's half wolf, half angel- and human of course. My brother stays in Asfian since he has those features. I can be here in Aizishia since I didn't get any of those.

And yeah, that's the rule. If an Aizishian has a child with someone not from the world of Aizishia, the necklace of the child would become confused because of the new blood that it does not recognize. So it thinks that it's royal blood thus giving the child an Aizimea necklace. My older brother has a necklace too but again he can't stay here in Aizishia.

Sir Siel made it clear that if any of us get some features from our mom then we can't stay in Aizishia. My mom however was able to stay since she knows how to shape shift. My brother however is unlucky because he couldn't do that. My dad is allowed in Asfian since everyone there looked unique. They all looked like they came from different worlds so no one would even think he's different. Now back to reality.

"No" Jake replied. "Everything's going to be okay Jake. They'll come around and realize that it's not me you like, it's Vrieya" I said. "They're clearly not going to" He replied. Love hurts. It hurt me too. A few years back, I did like Jake. Until some specific cousin of his decided to replace him. Yes, I like Almea.

The only problem is that, she ships us. But unlike Jake who thinks Vrieya will never like him back because she thinks we're dating, I on the other hand think I have a chance. Yes Almea likes to ship other people from time to time, she even shipped me with some dude we bumped into while we were walking. But other than that, maybe after they've realized we didn't love each other romantically, I'd have a chance of having Almea.

I'm not a gold digger. She's pretty. Her personality too. Jake thinks the same for Vrieya. But his shyness and negative thought is the problem here. "Try to stop thinking of all the negative things that could happen and try to think of the positive things that could happen. It'll make you feel better" I said. "She already likes someone else and she thinks we're dating. I don't have a chance. Never." He replied.

"Okay you did not mention that to me last night" I replied. He called me last night. And when Jake calls, it's obvious something's wrong. It's painful seeing him cry the whole night. He's confused. Lost. Unsure of what to do with his feelings. Or how to control them. "Just calm down, we'll think of some solution to this sooner or later okay?" I asked.

"That's the problem... I know the solution... But... I just can't seem to... I-..." I hugged him even before he started tearing up. Tearing up, in school? Okay he needs a break. Maybe a therapist to teach him how to control his feelings. I'm not one, so I don't know how to teach him that.

"I don't know how to deal with these feelings Jason... I've never even had this much feelings..." He added. "I know why" I said. I was hesitant to tell him why because, well, it will for sure hurt him a lot more. "Your papa... He just barely... you know like treat you like a kid. And your dad is pretty busy so you were never really taught on how to control your feelings" I said. He already knows that his parents didn't really give him much attention until now.

But after that time where Jake got stabbed, Mr. Kerolen's been giving him a lot more attention than he used to. I guess he was just guilty because what Jake learnt is: "hurt or not, get up" He was taught how to control physical pain. But no one taught him how to control his emotions. He doesn't understand them. That's his fear. He wants to understand everything that is important.

Some words such as dating or romantic stuff like that, he doesn't feel they're important that's why he doesn't know them. But stuff like feelings, he doesn't understand them, he's afraid of them. He just used to hide them, but over time, he's having a harder time hiding them. The bell rang and I walked him to his class.

"You can always go home. Your papa would understand" I said. He nodded. I decided to walk around the school. My first experience of school was with Mr. Kerolen. He teaches kids to be strong. Specifically, kids who have the Laiyee necklace.

He also helps some Dreizm kid holders too. He's not the best teacher when it comes to kids. But training, he's definitely good at it. My dad isn't cruel. He didn't enroll me there.

I just begged him to enroll me there. I had the Aizimea necklace. I always hid it with a scarf. I wanted to learn how to be strong like Mr. Kerolen. I admired him. Because of him, I was able to hide my necklace and disguise it as a Laiyee necklace.

Jake's POV:
What's wrong with me? I usually don't care on what I feel like. Unless it's anger. I've learnt how to control that emotion. But other emotions such as sadness, happiness, or even being scared and especially this new emotion I don't understand.

Is it an emotion or feeling? Scared is probably a feeling. I know how to control anger and most of those emotions. But putting them all together? It's hard. I don't know how I feel. I'm angry because of that person she likes. I'm sad for totally no reason. I don't know why.

I'm happy yesterday. I'm scared she might start ignoring me. And this other emotion/feeling that I only feel whenever she's here. It's a mixture of scared, happy, and nervous. No idea what's it called. SHN maybe? I don't know. Maybe I can treat this new feeling as a mystery. I've been solving mysteries ever since I was younger.

They were my missions. My papa gave them to me. I would finish them in a week or two. So maybe I will be able to figure this out. Okay step one, look for clues. Uh... I don't know. Okay um... Step one, figure out who's that person Vrieya likes? Yeah.

Step two, figure out if that person is going to end up replacing me. I hope not. Step three, do some research- wait- Step three should be step one- because I should do some research about this feeling first.

I mean, why do I even need to know who that person is that Vrieya likes- what do they have to do with this emotion? "Jake!" the teacher yelled. I was pulled out of my thoughts and realized I was still in class. I hate when this happens. "Are you listening?" she asked. I nodded.

"Answer the question on the board. Quickly now" she said. I nodded and got up. Thankfully, I've learnt about this before she taught it so I guess that's fine.
"You were listening yet you could not hear me?" she asked. "Are you okay dear?" She asked. I nodded.

"Stay after class, we need to talk. Okay?" She asked. I nodded. Great. Actually, I wasn't listening. I just knew what the lesson was. But back to my thinking. I should probably research about this emotion. I need to think more. I can't just cry them all out of my head.

That's not possible. I should probably stop all this crying stuff. It's not helping. It's just making things worse. Making my head ache, making my eyes ache. Why does water even flow out of the eyes anyway? Our eyes need water, yes.

But can't we just water them instead of getting sad and having our brain tell us to let the water we drink, flow out of the eyes? Some people say crying is good for your eyes. Well, I think not. My eyes just get puffy and red. Not make them feel better. Class ended and I didn't even notice. I was intensely just staring at my desk thinking.

I don't think I'm ready to talk to Vrieya yet. I'll probably be a weird mumbling mess if I do. When that happens I just make myself angry and storm off as an excuse. In reality, I'm nervous. Yeah, never thought I'd hide nervousness with anger. "Jake?" the teacher asked. I was too focused on my thoughts again. "Sorry" I replied.

"It's okay sweetie. What happened? Are you okay? You don't seem to pay attention in class. But I don't think your reason is the class is "boring" you always participate in my class, why stop now?" She asked. "Sorry..." I replied. I didn't know what else to answer.

I can just spill all my confusion with emotions to my teacher. No way. "Jake, are you okay?" She asked. Lying is terrible. I can't just lie can I? I never really lied. So, I shook my head. I hate lying. I don't want to lie. Never. Even if my life depended on it I'll never lie.

"You're so honest you know, what's wrong sweetie?" She asked. Only three words came out of my mouth. "I don't know..." I replied. It's true! I don't know what this new emotion is. I can't understand it. I'm scared, nervous and worried. Those are all similar emotions. But what am I scared of? What am I nervous about? What am I worried about?

If I just say all of that she'll ask me those questions and I would reply the same reply. I don't know. I wish I knew. I could never treat this is a mystery. It's a mystery that just from the beginning, I know I'll never be able to solve. Do I seek help? No. I don't do that.

But I kinda did... Last night. I asked Jason. Currently, he and Vrieya are the only ones who know this confusing emotion. Jason says he knows what it is but he won't tell me! He told me to try to learn how to control my emotions and feelings before he tells me.

And he said when I do learn how to control them, I'll easily figure out what this mysterious emotion is! Vrieya on the other hand, thinks I have a crush. I don't even know what that is. She assumed it was Jason, leading her to theorize I'm dating him. Is crush like- someone you like romantically?

Probably. She never really officially told me she liked someone romantically. I just read her mind. Which I should probably stop doing. "Ugh why can't I have someone like Drake? He's like the perfect husband. The perfect husband that I see in school for me doesn't really notice me. How I wish he did" those were her words. Well, in her mind.

Note: the "Drake" that Vrieya is referring to is a guy from the book she's reading when Jake read her mind :D just to make that clear

Someone perfect. Who? I don't know anyone else in school. Is it Jason? Okay maybe no, why do we keep assuming everything with him? He's the perfect brother for me. Zaile isn't that bad as a brother either, he's just, more absent. Jason is a brother who's always, always there. Anytime, anywhere.
Though, back then, I was kinda embarrassed of having a friend.

That's why I thought Vrieya was my first friend. No one else knows, Jason and I hang out a lot. I was still embarrassed by that fact so I asked him to keep it a secret. When he first became Almea's bodyguard, I knew he was coming. I just asked him to act like he hasn't seen me in years or something. But in reality, he was with me. Stalking Miel.

He's always been there. Okay I suddenly went off topic. Though I could talk about Jason for a long time. He's just the best. He's always there for me. He even disobeyed Guardian Siel and take me to the other world he's from. Okay, now back on topic, I'm still in the classroom with my teacher.

"Jake? You zoned out again sweetie" She said. "Sorry..." I replied. That's the third time I said that. She couldn't get anything out of me, so she let me go to my next class. At lunch break, I asked Jason if we could eat elsewhere. I need time to think. When I got home, Jason stayed with me like the good big brother he is. There, in my room, I told him all my thoughts and theories.

"See? You're already one step ahead. You've figured out the different emotions you feel that makes up this feeling. You're going to do just fine Jake" he replied.

"But... Will she replace me?" I asked. Why does that thought always make me cry? "That, is something I do not know" He said as he hugged me. I realized I fell asleep because when I woke up Jason was gone. He left a note.

"You fell asleep, Vrieya came by and said she's sorry, sleep well, you're going to be just fine. Love you lil bro. -Jason" I smiled at that.

Vrieya was the first to see me smile, but Jason was the first to make me smile. Ever since he became my friend I always smiled when he gave me these notes. But he doesn't need to know that. Or see that.

:D