Pure Luck - Rannett

seven

t/w - swearing, mentions of abandonment

"Razor was not with Bennett because..."

"...because Razor was scared Benny was angry.. So Razor left because he didn't want to make Benny more mad.."

Razor stumbled upon his words as if he were trying to find the right things to say. 

An immediate pounding hit Razor just on the left side of his chest, where his heart lay deep beneath his skin and bones. 

Fischl could tell the struggle Razor was having to explain, and her sympathetic eyes bore into Razor's. 

"Did you really think he was angry, Razor?" Fischl asked him calmly and softly.

Razor looked up at her, and pursed his lips. Well, that was the only reason he would act in such a manner. 

Right? Razor pondered in deep thought, and finally mustered his reply.

"...yes, Bennett looked very mad at Razor," He fiddled with his dirty hands and looked back towards his feet, which were planted on the ground.

Fischl mustered a little laugh, but slight sadness did fall upon her. 

It was as if the two were almost there, but instead of dancing with each other, they had been dancing around each other, barely stepping over one another.

Razor misunderstood the giggle for one of her "So you finally get it," laughs, and sighed.

"So Benny is mad at Razor?"

Fischl quickly composed herself and swung her hands around in front of her chest, shaking her head.

"No, no! In fact, Razor, he could never get angry at you like that," Fischl said frantically, trying to point out Bennett was not angry, or mad, or frustrated, even. Well, maybe a little frustrated, Fischl thought in her head.

Razor hummed in thought.

"Then why did Bennett act that way?" He asked softly, still fidgeting with his hands and fingers.

Fischl took in a deep breath and thought about how to explain this to Razor without making it confusing in any which way.

"Well, Razor," She started.

"In all truthfulness, Bennett cares about you a lot. He was just scared something would happen, or he would do something that would scare you away and make you not want to be his friend anymore. You mean so much to him, Razor," Fischl said finally, trying her best to go along with the flow.

Razor took in Fischl's words. He could tell they were words of honesty, by the way she was talking. He still had a fairly uneasy expression written all over his face.

"..scared? Bennett was scared of.. scaring Razor away?"

Fischl nodded.

"...But why would Benny be scared? Why would Razor not want to be his friend?" More and more questions piled into Razor's mind, and looked to Fischl's face again

"Hmm," Fischl thought to herself again. 

"You know how sometimes you can be scared, or maybe worried, to do something because something bad already happened?"

Razor shook his head slowly.

Fischl bit the inside of her cheeks and thought some more.

"Okay, for example.." Fischl cautiously brought up a touchy subject.

 "You're scared to meet your parents, right? I mean your birth parents," She said, correcting herself.

Razor anxiously nodded this time, but he wasn't quite connecting the thought of Razor's human parents and his and Bennett's friendship.

"Well, why are you scared of meeting them?" Fischl asked, being super duper mega ultra extra careful not to trigger anything traumatizing.

Razor already knew the answer to this question immediately, because he thought about this nearly every night.

He just needed to find the correct words for it now.

"Razor is scared to meet parents because.. because.." Razor struggled slightly, but Fischl patiently waited for him to finish his train of thought.

"..because maybe they wont like Razor," He said quietly, continuing.

"Maybe Razor's human parents will leave him again, because Razor is not what they want."

Fischl frowned, but nodded.

"That is exactly how Bennett feels, Razor. He has lost so many friends, all because of dumb reasons. You've been one of his greatest friends, and he would risk anything for you to stay. That's why he was being extra careful, and may have seemed mad," Fischl explained thoroughly, walking Razor through it.

It clicked for Razor then and there.

Fischl was right. Bennett wasn't mad. He didn't even seem close to mad from what Razor was recalling.

He just looked.. Nervous. As if he knew something was going to happen, but still tried to prevent it from happening anyways.

The sensation of someone, something, stabbing Razor right in the gut came back as quick as the speed of light. 

It was Razor in the fault.

Again.

He was to blame.

Razor felt a shiver crawl up his spine and made him sit up.

"Where is Bennett now?" He asked twiddling with his feet.

Fischl smiled and knew she was at least getting somewhere.

"The funny thing is, Razor," She said, looking up at the sky.

"Bennett is actually looking for you in Mondstat right now I believe. He's going around asking everyone if they've seen you,"

"...That's how badly he wants to apologize to you. Hell, he even sent me out here," She chortled lightly.

Razor almost immediately lit up, and straightened his posture. You could clearly tell that if Razor had a tail, it would most definitely be wagging.

He began to speak up again.

"Will you take me to go find Bennett, Fischl?" 

Fischl nodded quickly and grinned. 

Yes! She thought to herself. Two of her closest friends were just about to reunite, and Fischl got to help!

Or so she thought.

994 words

a/n 

Hello everyone! Special thanks to my early readers and supporters, I really do appreciate every single one of you. As a small writer who is here to just do writing exercises and work on my creative writing skills, I am so glad that some of you guys find my story(ies) pleasing! 

Also would like to say sorry for the late post, I was supposed to post earlier, but I fell asleep. 

I'm now on Winter Break for approximately TWO WEEKS, so hopefully I'll get a lot of writing and chapters done!

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