Reborn

Chapter 28

I sit down at a bench, watching Gon's match on the TV. Killua had his hand on my head, gently petting me like a dog. "I'm still surprised that I won..." I spoke up, still staring at the TV. "You won because your strong." I sigh, finally seeing Gon walking towards us. "Let's go! I wonder how much I got this time." Gon said, giving me a smile.

I stand, making the albino boy remove his hand so we could walk towards the counter. I stay behind the two boys', watching them turn my ticket in as well. I've only turned my ticket in once. For the rest of our time here, I haven't turned in another. I always made one of them do it. "Your prize money has been deposited into your account."

I back up a little, giving the two besties some room. They smile at each other and walk away, almost leaving me behind. 'I feel so out of place.' I thought, following the boys. "You were right. I've never seen so many zeros before." Gon said. I sniff, grabbing onto the back of Killua's shirt, not wanting to lose them.

The white-haired boy didn't seem to mind per usual. "Crazy that just last week, I was totally broke." I hum, tuning the conversation out. 'I'm hungry...' I thought. I was also kind of embarrassed by the way I behaved the other day. Killua and Gon act like it never happened and had not even asked about it once.

It made me think how much I was holding them back. Possibly even making me rethink about leaving. I then accidentally bump into Killua's back, letting out an "oof" and a "sorry". They must have been talking about Zushi. "(Y/n), do you know what that Ren thing that Zushi was talking about?" Gon asks, staring back at me.

I had to pretend to be clueless. Sad but I can't just tell them. "No, not really. But it can't be hard to figure out. Why don't you ask Zushi himself?" I say, giving them somewhat of a hint at where to start. "Oh, I guess it would be faster..." Killua said. I knew he was about to say that we would probably meet other opponents who use it.

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"Ren is one of the Four Exercises." I chuckle a bit, watching Killua's and Gon's face. It was just as funny in person. As Zushi keeps trying to explain about Ren, the boys don't get an ounce of it. "Learn Ten, know Zetsu, through Ren attain Hatsu! And all of that is how you train for Nen!" Zushi said, pointing his finger up and looking proud of his explanation.

"Start making sense!" Killua yelled, making me burst out laughing. "You! Stop laughing!" I cover my mouth, muffling the sounds of my laughter. I cough, seeing Wing walking towards us. "Zushi... Are you certain that you're sufficiently qualified to be teaching others?" I clear my throat, not wanting to laugh in front of Wing.

I watch Wing and Killua exchange conversation. Killua was saying how he was convinced that Nen was behind his brothers' power. I sigh, tuning the conversation out. I already knew everything. Although, I didn't know if I was qualified to even have Nen to begin with. This isn't my previous life.

Having someone interfere with a storyline can cause problems. And I already know that I've changed the timeline a lot just because of my presence. "Maybe I shouldn't go to the 200th floor..." I whispered. "Well, in that case... Let's adjourn to my room." Wing said, walking away. I bite my lip, following the three boys'. 

I stayed behind, not wanting to walk in front. Once we walk outside, I notice how dark it was. I stick close to Gon, biting my lower lip raw. I felt Gon pull me closer to him and pat my shoulder, basically telling me that it's okay. 'I swear, I don't deserve this.' I thought, finally seeing Wing's place.

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I sat on the floor, staring at the two boys' who were standing. "Paying attention?" Wing asks, staring at all 3 of us. Wing then starts to explain. I knew all this already, so I just stare blankly at Wing, hoping that I at least looked like I was paying attention. Wing starts to write on the whiteboard. 

Leaning my cheek into the palm of my hand, I start to think, 'At least I can read it.' I let out a quiet yawn, using my right hand to cover my mouth. "Are you listening, (y/n)?" I stare at Wing, letting out another yawn. "I am. Continue." I said, motioning the grown-up to continue. As Gon and Killua question the methods, I sniff and rub my nose.

'What is wrong with me? I was literally fine earlier.' I thought, shaking my head. "See, Zushi tempered his 'refusal to lose' during his battle with you, Killua." I stand up, already knowing what was coming next. "Now, allow me to demonstrate." Wing said. I stand next to Killua, suddenly interested.

Hisoka already did it once, although it wasn't a pleasant experience. I could still feel the pain I felt from that day. "(Y/n)?" I flinch, staring into Wing's eyes. "For this demonstration, I would like to 'kill' you now. Is that alright?" My eyes widen, not expecting myself to take the place of the boy next to me. 'Why...?' I thought.

I started to get nervous, backing up a little. "E-excuse me?" I stutter out. Wing only smiled. The two boys' look my way, watching as I back up a little bit more. I was trying to prepare myself. "I uh... guess so." I bite my lip, watching every move Wing made. The only grown-up in the room then lifts a finger, saying, "Let's do this in order. First, Ten."

I clear my throat, placing my hands into my hoodie pockets. I was trying to seem relaxed when, in reality, I was nervous. Scared, even. After that encounter with Hisoka, I was scared of what they call Nen. I never wanted to feel that much pain ever again. Wing then got into a stance, placing his hands in front of him.

"I focus my mind on a single point." Wing closed his eyes and then opened them again, now saying, "Zetsu: Express your desired intent. Either mentally or verbally." I felt my hands start to shake. I swallow my spit, suddenly feeling my mouth go dry. I take deep breaths. Closing his eyes again, Wing states that he will kill me.

I feel it. Wing's aura. The boys were impressed by it, but I wasn't. I felt myself go stiff. My hands were now shaking uncontrollably inside my pockets. And then, the aura got stronger. Wing's aura pushed me back but only made the other's hair flop around. My eyes widen more, feeling my whole-body shake.

Wing only stared at me. I then started to feel like a thousand knifes were being stabbed into me. It was the same feeling. I quickly hold my head, gripping my hair with the intent to pull it out. 'Scared...! I'm scared...!' I backed up against the wall, feeling only the pain. I finally let out a blood curdling scream, forcing Wing to stop his actions. 

"(Y/n)?!" I hear the two boys exclaim. Wing had a look of surprise, not expecting that kind of reaction. I take deep, fast breaths, feeling tears fall down my cheeks. I stare at everyone in horror as if they weren't people I knew. "What's wrong?!" I hear Killua ask while yelling. I watch as the besties try to come towards me, only for me to push myself into the wall.

I felt as if I was trying to dip through the wall. Which was not possible. At least, I don't think. "S-stay away from me!" I scream out, not wanting anyone near me...