i've finished getting ready for the show, i manage to eat a little energy bar with my coffee, i need energy to get through today without embarrassing myself. i head to the car to drive my way to set, and once i'm there it's finally around 7 am. i walk in looking for gwen, hoping to see her, but i don't want to act too much like a fan. i want her to see me as a partner in her work , and maybe even become friends. the director spots me and brings me to hair and makeup, things are starting to feel official now. i walk into the room and spot gwen, i immediately blush a little too much, and gwen sees me. "oh hello there! i've heard all about you. i'm so excited to work with you love." i blush even more, kind of shrunken in on myself in shyness that all of a sudden planted itself onto me. "it's such a pleasure to work with you , omg. i hope you don't mind me fangirling here but i love your work so much. " "aw you're an angel, would you like to sit beside me?" gwen asks. i can't believe i get to sit next to THE gwendoline christie. i nod emphatically, and she pats the chair next to her. the makeup artist smiles warmly at me as i walk up. "so, what inspired you to act and to be on this show?" gwen asks. "well it's been a dream of mine for a really long time to work with you and to be an actor in general, i'm honored to be here truly." "well i'm sure you'll be great. you're gonna be my daughter in this show, i hope you like the role!" "of course i can't wait for the show to progress."
*3 hours later*
we're working and we've been working hard with zero breaks so far, it's been fun but i'm starting to feel extremely faint , but i don't wanna ask to stop.
i probably should've eaten a bigger breakfast, and i know that.. i'm a recovering anorexic and i'm supposed to be eating bigger meals to restore my health, but i just can't bring myself to yet, and i don't want to draw the attention towards me.. what if they think it's because i can't handle it?
next thing i remember, i'm blacked out on the floor. i think i hit my head. i groan as i hear gwen commanding for someone to come and help me. gwen rushes toward me and i try to get up but she won't let me. "shhh shhh it's okay , don't get up. we're getting you help no need to be embarrassed. did you eat anything today? " gwen says, while brushing my forehead with her thumb. "i had a little.. " "okay well you need more. why don't we go out to eat on break? in fact let's make break earlier today . you deserve it and i promise you're doing an amazing job. "
