it's 4 am after a long night of no sleep, i was supposed to fall asleep early, but my brain wouldn't shut up. i hear the loud ringing sounds of my alarm, and i groan. even though todays the day i get the opportunity to work with gwendoline christie, i've always admired her work and i've always dreamed of the day this would happen. i still can't help but feel overwhelmed with myself. i know that i need to get ready and not let my mental health destroy what's going to hopefully be an amazing day, but it's so hard. i just can't believe the days finally here. i've been manifesting this for ages, so i guess i can kind of believe it, but it finally feels real for once.. maybe i've made it. the acting scout for the movie saw my small role in a movie which recently came out in theaters, and thought i was the perfect role for the new show. of course i said yes.
i finally get out of bed and put on my morning playlist to try to help me wake up and feel better.
