I hate that I can't control my own mouth
I hate that I always have the perfect thing to say
I hate that I can never seem to get the words from my brain to my mouth
It's like the words get jumbled and mixed around by the time they reach my mouth
My mind goes blank
My heart starts to race
My palms start to sweat
My mouth goes dry
It feels like I'm about to pass out
I want to say that you're one of the most amazing people I've ever met
I want to say I've never met anyone who's made me feel this secure
I want to let you know how much I love and appreciate you
I want to have real conversations with you and discuss our views
I want to tell you that I would never hurt you
That I think the world of you, that I can't believe you've been infatuated by me
That I don't usually allow myself to insert someone in my life because I know what it's like to have people constantly leaving your life.
That I would never do anything to hurt you
That I'm trying my best to be good for you
that im sorry if I let you down because it's all I ever seem to do to myself
Yet nothing comes out.
