the ghost of christmas love

nini

HII!!! i hope you're doing great!!! CHRISTMAS IS SO SOON. which sadly means this book is ALSO ending soon...

ENJOY!!!

i walk through the golden doors and feel a wave of nausea wash over me. i lose my balance for a second, grabbing onto the staircase railing to catch myself.

"woah nini are you okay?", kourtney asks, rushing up the stairs.

i nod and rub my head, "yeah i think i'm just tired...had a long day."

"are you sure?", she asks, "you look pale."

i nod, reassuring her, "yeah i just need to go lay down."

she takes my arm and guides me down the stairs. we walk across the floor and down the hallway towards our bedrooms. we enter mine and i head into my bathroom to change. i get dressed in comfier clothes and i take my makeup off.

i walk back out of the bathroom and see kourtney and seb talking.

"are you sure your okay?", seb asks.

i chuckle quietly and nod again, "yes i promise...goodnight."

they exit my room and i close my door, shutting the lights off. i crawl into my bed and relax feeling the soft sheets and comforter. the beds feel like clouds here.

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i yawn and open my eyes, stretching my arms out. the sunlight is shining through my window and i feel pounding in my head.

i sit up and glance at the clock hanging on my wall. i notice it's past 10am which is very unlikely for me. i pull the sheets off quickly and jump off my bed, my feet hitting the cold floor.

it feels like my head spins and everything goes blurry. i fall to the floor with a thump.

"ow...", i groan.

i push myself up with my hands and lean against my bed. i suck in a deep breath and stand up, slowly this time, strolling into my bathroom.

i turn the shower on so the water can warm up and i start washing my face. once i get in the shower, i close my eyes and let the water run down my body.

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it's around 12pm now and i'm finally ready to go visit ricky. i'm curious to know what's going on with his niece. i feel bad and i'm hoping everything is okay.

i walk into the main room where everyone is and i hear someone call my name. i turn around and see jovie walking up to me.

"hey nini! how are you feeling this morning?", she asks, "seb and kourtney told me you weren't feeling good last night?"

i let out a breath and small laugh, "i'm all okay i promise. i just had a long day yesterday."

she gives me an unsure look and i smile at her to reassure her. she hugs me and i make my way to the golden doors. as per usual, i walk through them and through the white mist.

i'm placed down in front of a hospital room. i frown knowing he's inside with his niece and sister. i reach into my pocket and take the serum out. i gulp it down, cringing at the taste again.

i feel the tingly and white sparkles fall around me. i shake my limbs out and knock on the door. soon it opens and it's an unfamiliar girl. i'm assuming it's his sister.

"who are you?", she asks.

ricky peeks from behind her and he slightly widens his eyes in shock. he walks over to his sister and leans down to whisper something to her.

"oh!", she exclaims, "come in."

i enter the hospital room and glance around. it's dark and depressing. i smile at ricky and then look at his sister.

"i'm nini.", i smile.

she nods her head, "paige. ricky's told me a lot about you...i hope that's okay."

i chuckle, nodding, "it's not the first time someone spills the secret i'm a ghost."

"but...how can i see you?", she questions, looking at ricky and i confused.

"i recently discovered this serum that makes me visible to everyone else.", i explain and she nods with interest.

"how's your daughter?", i ask.

"the doctors are running more tests but...i don't have a good feeling.", she sighs, crossing her arms.

i frown at her but then she perks up. she glances at ricky and then at me.

"do you need him?", she asks.

"i was gonna but—i don't want to pull him away from you.", i tell her.

she shakes her head immediately, "oh no no! i'll be okay...my husband is on his way."

i nod and back away towards the door. ricky talks quietly to his sister quickly before hugging her. he walks over towards me and we both leave the room, standing in the hallway.

"how are you doing?", i ask.

he shrugs, "i'm worried but...okay. you?"

"i'm alright.", i respond.

"where are we going today?"

i let out a breath, already feeling nervous, "to the past...but i need you to just take a deep breath."

he looks at me with concern and then i take his hand. snapping my fingers together, we're swept into the white clouds and then placed down on snow covered grass.

i stare at the floor, pressing my lips together as i wait for him to see where we are. a voice sounds and i hear ricky's feet turning around on the snow. i hear the sharp breath exit his mouth immediately.

i look up and see him staring at his 19 year old sister as she stands on the podium in front of two caskets.

their parents.

i nervously look up at him and i can see the anger in his face.

"why are we here?", he mutters, "do you really think showing me my dead parents will make the christmas spirit come back?"

"ricky it's just—"

"it's all part of the plan right?", he cuts me off, "well this...this is just too far, okay?!"

he turns around and i stare at his back. he crosses his arms together and i gulp.

"ricky it's not like i want to make you relive the worst times of your life.", i tell him, "the point of doing this is to...i don't know, accept it. find peace."

he shakes his head and stares down at me. i feel my stomach swirling with nerves watching him be angry at me.

"take me back."