Will I Ever Be Happy?

FALLEN AGAIN - CHAPTER 9

Gabriel's phone rang, and it kept ringing a few times but he didn't pick up after a look at the phone. I was now curious why wasn't he picking up the call, was he worried I'll overhear it? "Gabriel, you should pick up the call" I said slowly but made sure he heard me. "No it isn't something important" he said looking at me, I nodded looking away from him and outside. When the phone rang again I glanced over it had the name 'my babe' he looked over the phone and then at me. He saw me glances towards the name but again he didn't pick up. My whole mood felt different it shifted drastically, I didn't understand the pain which I'm feeling. Why!Why am I feeling hurt! I soon realized that he was dressed up in the suit for a date or party with 'his babe'. I'm and would never be 'her' did I want to be her? perhaps I did-

The car stopped and I arrived to my house I got out said bye to which he didn't respond he just looked at me in pity or something else. Did he see the pain in eyes? Cause he gave me a straight tight smile and left. Did I not even deserve his bye now? I knew it was a silly thing but my heart is maybe silly. Tears forming but I wouldn't let them fall, I need my teddy quickly entering my house only to see aunty Amber looking at me suspiciously I didn't tell her did? Oh God.

(Amber's thoughts)

This girl what should I do with her I told her no boyfriend till graduation but she isn't understanding "Rena!!" I shouted at her, "Yes aunty what happened" she asked in a clam tone. I had seen her in the sports car with a boy and the car was looked very expensive I didn't want her to be involved with someone her age or older it didn't matter. I know she isn't stupid but if something happens to her I would never forgive myself, she was now like my own daughter. I didn't want her to redo make mistakes like I did before with him.

"Who was that boy that dropped you?" I demanded an answer, I knew she would tell me but my blood pressure was rising every second. I might not be a good mother like figure for her but if she lives under by house she needs to tell me everything that concerns me "oh" She looked at me thinking now I was getting impatient "Who was the boy who dropped you just now?" I asked seriously again, "he is the brother of the girl I'm tutoring" she replied with a second. I see no names very suspicious and why didn't she tell me before "I want names" I asked "ok I'll tell you aunty chill" I wasn't in mood to chill, she could see that "first you didn't tell me you're going to tutor, second a boy drops you at 10pm, third I'm worried sick here trying to call your phone.

Do you know how dangerous it is for a girl to go out at night especially this neighborhood? And you're telling me to chill?" I was more than angry now, why doesn't she understand how important she is? Such a suborn child also I didn't want her to go with boys and this late at night for many reasons I stared at her for a while "I said names Rena" I looked at her narrowing my eyes, I could she tears in her eyes but I had to be strict for her safety "Gabriel and his sister Wara they study in my school" I nodded but I need to know more "full names" I asked waiting "Gabriel Robertson and Wara Robertson" she said and my eyes were now wide open is she talking about the Robertsons family, "how did you even get involved with them? oh my God, what have you got yourself into, that family is-" then just as I was saying she cut me off
"Aunty don't worry they're not my friends just for some time, I will be tutoring her this month only" I don't know but if she is insisting to help someone who's not even her friend but it's a good thing she's going outside and socializing "Okay but I need you to be home at sharp 8pm no matter what, give me the address and the boys phone number. Don't get too close with them especially Gabriel" I said to her strictly she shouldn't be involved in there mess "okay aunty Amber don't worry and if you think I have chance with Gabriel you're wrong his just out of MY LEAGUE" saying that she rushed to her room, shocked by her outburst I thought about it and moved to cook dinner. I knew I had been harsh on Rena my trust issues got into the way, I thought about going to her room but that would cause more damage. I don't want to hurt her ever, she's my baby.

(Rena's thoughts)

Screaming at aunt I ran to my room I'm indeed too ugly and useless for him. Changing my clothes and going into the shower looking down at my own body, it didn't feel like my body. I forgot how I looked didn't I? Taking a hot shower, changing into my sleep wear. Jumping into my bed holding my teddy. I named him love, only he has seen and been with me since Grandma left me. He has been there everything I cried and every time there for me, hugging him after long day felt her hug Grandma's. He was precious to me cause he was gifted by Grandma on my last birthday with her. The tears are unstoppable, my whole body hurts I couldn't stop crying it wasn't just about today but everything till now. Aunty called me for dinner but I had lost my appetite now. I spend the whole night wide awake. The pain was unbearable I needed to do it again, cut my skin again, I promised myself and God but I can't take it. I apologized to Grandma and God for the sins I do, I knew how much of a disappointment I'm towards everyone and everything but they love me and would love me. I'm just sorry and I- just a cut on my tigh-

(Third pov)

Sitting in the dinner table alone, Amber was thinking where she went wrong with today's conversation then she remembered that Rena's birthday was going to come on December 28th in a week, she had to give Rena something special didn't she. After eating and keeping Rena's leftover into boxes but Amber gets a phone call from a unknown number turns out to be someone close to her, the conversation-
"Hello this Amber speaking"
"Hi Amber it's your friend Samra do you remember me?" and it continued for a hour or so.

On the other hands Rena wasn't having the best time crying her eyes out asking herself will I ever be happy? She cried over anything but it always landed on the same question Will she ever be happy? no matter what she did the sadness within her seemed like a deep ocean which she could drown in her life which was full of darkness and nobody knew what's happening to her or what was wrong with her even Amber who's on a phone call downstairs couldn't hear the silent screams of her. Sometimes, the most silent screams turn into marks, marks on skin. Rena knew she wasn't a princess where the prince would save her. She knows she has to save herself or she would drown. She's afraid cause what if she's too deep to see the light again? The hope again in her? Afraid of the world, scared of being lost, of being misunderstood every time, of not being pretty enough, of never changing...of failing and being a disappointment forever...she worried. Wondered if only 'God' could take her now and save her but~

Little does Rena herself know,
Life has its own secret, called destiny, which nobody knows expect 'God'
Are you curious to know where destiny will lead Rena to?

Author ttee~

Edited on 5th July 2024

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