We Happened

9.Secretà

Third person POV:
 
 
 
In dawn, Taehyung woke up first. He himself was surprised because it was still darkish outside. But there was something like a coiling feeling inside him. Taehyung tried to suppress his feeling and sleep again. Jeongguk was pulling him in the embrace even while sleeping. But it was getting harder for Taehyung to keep still. So he got up, putting a pillow in Jeongguk's hold. The inside feeling was turning into a nausea. Rushed inside the washroom, then stabilized himself holding the counter. Taehyung locked the door, so that no sounds go out. He felt this kind of uneasiness yesterday too, remembering it - it also happened two days before.
   
    
  
The sudden nausea again hit him with a full force. Opening the water tap to block the sound of his gagging, Taehyung sat down to empty his stomach. What's this actually? Nothing coming out with the retching but the feeling burning his throat. Taehyung tried to remember what he had eaten the night prior. But everything was normal, home cooked by his own hand and Jin's hand.
 
 
 
His moments of thinking was cut short as another period of nausea struck him. Taehyung gagged loudly, it's such an unpleasant feeling. Last Tae had these kind of bad vomits were when was pregnant with their first child. And he absolutely hates the feeling of such kind. The fuck is the reason now! Taehyung is angry that he can curse even himself.
 
   
 
Wait, when he was pregnant with Tae-ri. Wait wait, pregnant. Come again? During pregnancy. Taehyung had his eyes wide open. "god no no no, no please, no", Taehyung was murmuring with tears in eyes. He retched for some more minutes until he sat up lifeless on the floor. No, it can't be. They are sexually active but taehyung is taking birth control regularly. In the last 1.5 year it has been working fine. Never such complications emerged, but.......why now. "Why me God! Please no!" taehyung sobbed out.
 
 
 
It's unbelievable, unacceptable for Taehyung to be pregnant in this time. In no way they're planning for another kid anytime soon. Taehyung doesn't know about Jeongguk but he himself isn't ready. Not mentally, not physically, nothing. Two is more than enough for him, his hands already full with duties of two. Taehyung felt like screaming at this feeling, the dilemma. He started crying badly on the floor. Sobbing, hiccuping, feeling angry on himself to let this suspicion even arise! But he doesn't know what more he could do! Didn't miss a day of birth control, never.
 
 
 
After crying for 15  minutes on the cold washroom floor, he washed his face and came out. Giving himself hope that maybe it's just food poisoning, mayhaps he's just thinking excessively. Right? Right. He wiped his face, turned the water tap off before coming out.
 
 
 
Jeongguk woke up slightly when Taehyung tried to slide back in his arms.
 
 
 
Jeongguk: *huskily* did the kids wake up?

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Taehyung: no, washroom. You sleep.

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Jeongguk: hm
  
 
 
Jeongguk returned to sleep, but Taehyung couldn't. He was stark awake till the day was bright and only acted like waking up when Jeongguk finally woke up. Taehyung's head is a mess, total mess. He just can't put his mind at rest. He needs to find out what is this and if it's what he's thinking.
   
   
  
Jeongguk: good morning,baby

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Taehyung: huh?

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Jeongguk: I said good morning,baby

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Taehyung: oh morning gguk

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Jeongguk: why don't you sleep some more ? I'll go to office little late today, I can manage the kids and breakfast.

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Taehyung: oh no no, it's okay. I'll do. You can go early if needed.
   
   
   
"No no no no, Jeongguk can't stay in the morning. I'll die in confusion, I need to go to the pharmacy to pick some tests", Taehyung was thinking. How do he tell Jeongguk to go to office today? Should he tell Jeongguk? Then he decided,Never. He won't tell Jeongguk anything regarding his sickness.
    
   
   
Jeongguk: tae? Are you okay? You seem startled?