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I have this feeling where I get older, but just never wiser
I was woken up by a bright light shining on my face, my eyes fluttered open and I saw that I was in Ash's bed room, I was the nearest to the window meaning I could see the birds in the trees, the morning rising and the world waking up, I went to get up but felt something stop me, I turn my head to see Ash spooning me, his arm wrapped around my waist and his head buried into the top of my back. Instead of getting up I spun around and decided to get a good look at the boy Infront of me, well I should say man now, he has grown at least 5 inches taller making him at least 6 foot.
My eyes travelled to his arm, the veins pulsating out of the skin, holding a tight grip against me, my eyes travelled up and that when I noticed he wasn't wearing a top. Ashtray was spooning me. Practically Naked.
I look at him respectively, I noticed a mark on his chest. I furrowed my eyebrows and came closer to see it was a number. 145. I have no idea what it means but Ashtray must of gotten this recently. Before I even met Ash he had tattoos on his face and some on his arms but this one was on his body just above his collar bone, there were no other tattoos around it just the one.
I brought my free hand that wasn't under Ash and began to trace the tattoo with my fingers, Ash's smooth skin felt amazing under my touch, I couldn't help myself but travel my fingers around him, I travelled them down his arm and felt his veins, I kept looking up at Ash to see if he had woken but his eyes were still shut and he just nestled closer to me. My hands travelled to his jaw and then back to the chest, I looked at Ash one more time then my hand went lower and lower to his torso, I began tracing my fingers and before I could move again a hand stopped me.
"If you wanna give me a hard on be my guest but I wont be able to stop myself after that" I look up to see Ash looking down at me, I instantly regret it and turn my face away.
"Sorry" I mutter feeling the redness go to my cheek, he pulls my face up and I stare into his brown eyes.
"Are you okay?" he asks, I go silent and go to answer but he interrupts "I should of killed Mouse for what he did yesterday, Seeing him touching you like that I wanted to kill him I wanted to-" I could see him clearly getting frustrated so a put a hand on his face and made him look at me.
"Ash I'm fine, he didnt do any damage to me, I'm okay" I say, he nods clearly still irritated by yesterdays events. "Ash?" I say quietly, he looks down at me and begins to stroke my hair. The feeling of being in his arms again makes me feel at home. He is my home.
"Mhmm" he says as he stares at me with a look I cant comprehend.
"This tattoo" I say as I begin to trace it again "What does it mean?" I ask, I hear him take in a big breathe and when I look up at him I see him trying to decide if he should tell me or not.
"After you woke up and you got sent away, my heart broke, you were the only person who ever saw me as me, and when they told me you would be gone for a long time I fell into a dark place, like a real fucking dark place, I got through it with the help of Fez but after I knew that I had changed, after a couple of months of you being at the institution I got this tattoo" he finished, The pain he felt during that time felt like it had all gone into me, I was feeling everything Ash felt, I looked up at him with sorrow and confusion.
"I'm so sorry Ash, for everything" I say, I place my head on his chest. A tear drop falls from my eye onto him, I feel his hands in my hair stroking it. "Why 145 though" I ask, Ash stops stroking my hair and I look up at him.
"It was your hospital room number 145" He says, I look at him with even more sorrow than before.
"Ash I'm so sor-" I didnt get to finish because his lips were on mine, it happened so fast, his hand was on my face pulling me up to him. Even though me and Ash had kissed before, this felt different like we could feel each other's emotion. Ash pulled back and looked at me, I could see he was about to apologize, like the gentle man he was but I captured his lips with mine again before he could. The kiss felt like the realest thing in my life.
I'm not sure how long we were kissing for but what I do know is that when Rue burst in and we pulled apart, the look in his eyes didnt feel like sorrow or regret it felt like home.
And this time I wasn't messing it up.
After Rue had interrupted we went into the kitchen to see Fez sat with Rue watching friends, Fez clearly was too invested in the show to even acknowledge us I just sat down at the table, I saw my phone sat on the edge charging thanks to Fez, so I unplugged it and went on it.
It was currently 7:05 meaning I had at least an house before needing to be at school, so I decided to go through Instagram and see what was up.
when scrolling through my phone I saw something move Infront of me, I moved my phone to see a bowl of cereal placed Infront of me, I looked up to see Ash making himself some. when he had done making his he turned around and sat opposite me, when he saw I hadn't started eating he sent a glare my way.
"Eat Eliana" He said, normally I hated being told what to do but Ash had said it forcefully yet comforting, so I picked up my spoon and shoved a spoon full in my mouth.
"Yes dad" I said sarcastically, but Ash just gave me a smirk making me roll my eyes.
After eating my cereal which Ash had made sure of, Fez dropped me off at school and I went on with my day like usual, except it felt better than normal, because for once in a very long time I was happy and nothing was going to mess it up.
Well....
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I know this is short and I will be doing longer ones
