I know I'm not a good person, I've accepted that fact a long time ago. But frankly, it doesn't matter. If you're good enough at pretending to be a decent person, no one will care about the reality. The same way no one cares about the moon as long as the sun is shining. When you don't let the night come out, the moon will stay hidden. Hidden away from the eye of the public and free of judgment.
I also know that many who pretend to be good people, aren't. Because a truly good person doesn't exist. Some of the nicest people have the deepest and darkest thoughts, some they would never dare to say out loud. Or secrets that they can't risk anyone finding out. Secrets that are so horrifying that they would risk lives in order to keep them hidden.
But I know. I know, because I can look into their heads.
And why should I bother to pretend when I know it's an expectation that can't be met in the first place? We all are a little too greedy, a little too narcissistic or a little too perverted to be called a good person. It's just reality, humans are fated to be flawed.
There was only one person I ever wanted to pretend to be good for, Rama Takahashi. I've known her since elementary, she literally brought out the best in me. I admired her, she was honest and real, she wasn't pretending. Rama was one of the first people I met that weren't pretending, that said her true thoughts out loud.
I've seen her be resented for it, be scolded for being rude but that's how life for non-pretenders is like. People who don't pretend get treated like scum, even though everyone praises honesty to high heavens. When you don't know how to shut up naturally, out of shame or fear, it's taught to you. It was quite funny seeing teachers and parents try to teach Rama to shut up, because it didn't work.
Maybe it was stubbornness, maybe stupidity, I can't tell. Rama just wouldn't budge and eventually everyone noticed and they gave up.
Still, she was the 'princess', not because she was perfect, she was far from that actually, but because of the aura of comfort she presented. Even normal people felt that with her, even if just for a moment, they could stop pretending.
(a/n: this is still a work in progress!!)
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Abnormal scenes
Mystery / ThrillerI most likely won't be posting this but this is just some scenes of something I'll be making in the future. For now I only have one planned chapter but we'll see how it goes. I'm right now thinking about posting this, but it won't have many views a...
